I Am So Sorry, Lord

I know you can and will read this, Lord...so here goes...

I am so sorry for some of the things I have done in my life and even lately how I have been. Nothing REAL bad, but not really the best either, LOL. I just wanted to tell you I still think about you and tell you how I think a bit. I think it is better to do it like this as I consider it kind of an open prayer that ALL can see and maybe understand as well.

Lord, I live in a world of utter HELL as you fully know. I am SURROUNDED by hate, greed, selfishness, and all the rest that ARE increasing daily. It is NOT easy to live proper anymore. I want you to know that I will strive every day to do so. YOU know as well do I that this will get worse and I cannot do it without you, period. IF it were not for faith in you, I would NOT live in this world and would walk into my room and put a bullet in my brain right now as I cannot STAND this world anymore and MOST of the people in it.

I CANNOT be like this world and be so utterly superficial and care about nothing but myself, Chinese goodies, American idol, Britney Spears, SUVs, living like an animal (meaning only eating, crapping, screwing, and the usual animal habits)...WHY? Because YOU gave me a heart and a mind to THINK for myself, that is my problem! I truly HATE this world anymore. Sorry, but I do as it is FULL of garbage.

Also, please forgive me for some of my thoughts like:

I know we are supposed to forgive our enemies but, Sir, I seemingly CANNOT with Iran and I WOULD kill them with the power of the sun before they do us as they are NUTS! I wonder what you think about Hitler and World War II? I wish I could ask you right now. Sir, we could have saved MILLIONS!!! And yet we sat back and WATCHED him build up and did nothing! It was NOT your fault, it was OURS alone. We could have saved so many innocent children, yet good men stayed silent and pure evil prospered. Sigh.

Am I wrong? I think of this all the time. I think it sounds bad to say that I would like to KILL Iran as the are TRULY the purest evil on the face of the earth today...of course, you know that already. So, Sir, it ENRAGES me to sit back and watch what they are doing as we do NOTHING, but we could stop them now. PS, when Iran does start World War III, you KNOW they are going to curse YOU and blame you, yet it is OUR (the world's) fault.

Put it this way, I KNOW I cannot be good, I KNOW I cannot do ANYTHING to save myself...I guess that's why YOU did it for me. Just wanted to say THANKS as well. I am FAR from perfect, so I am glad you are! LOL.

Sir, I KNOW and FEEL what is soon coming on this earth because you have given me the privilege of feeling it. I want to let you know I STILL place all my faith in you. I have NOTHING to offer you, but my faith and love for what you did.

I realize I, most likely, will die at the hands of these extremist nuts from Iran or the like and I just wanted to ask you to help us ALL (your TRUE believers) through this as I know it is going to test us to the utmost. Please help us keep our sense until we have to go. I realize this is coming upon us FAST as we (good men) stay silent and watch this pure evil build unto an un-stoppable force...we will deserve what we get and I wanted to let you know it is NOT your fault it IS ours, sigh.

So, I am sorry for NOT being like you. I am sorry for my thoughts in this evil world. I am sorry for DESPISING American's (especially American's) and other parts of the world that are nothing but robots and animals, but I seem not to be able to help it! Thanks for listening and I am ready, with your help, to go through what I KNOW with all my being is soon to come.