Not female friendly...

May trucking...Good co. Short of the Alpha Female who made my life hell just short of soloing out...stay away from the phx. Yard girls...

 

At first I really admired her...even her silk dresses and stilettos...lol personally for me its boots and blue jeans. Hat pulled down low and more often than not I hide behind sun glasses..lol but I also don't think you have to dress like a man because it is predominately a mans world...so I admired what should have given me reason for second thought...there was a big stir about this new Kid who applied and I was sitting in her office and she said watch this! In 15 min. She had this kid (25) hooked up and on his way...he shows up at the yard Fri night...no office people around so James picked him up(she asked me first and I declined for my own personal reasons) and we helped him find a truck to stay in over the weekend...orientation didn't even start till Tues. So he was there way early and couldn't be put up in the hotel till Monday..at the same time, I'm still trying to solo...I got out of my trainers truck after 3weeks...great trainer, but I found myself driving g a lot of miles only to back up at once...we both knew I needed more backing before I could get out there with any amount of Confidence...I asked to spend the next week on the backing range so I would be ready to solo...she alternatively sent me with a local driver who goes only to PhD and back, hooking and unhooking.sounded great other than he didn't want me out so soon and before you knew it, I had more issues than I started with! My trainer told her I could drive and shift,fairly good understanding of the Qualcomm etc.just backing...so now I can see I'm not ever going to get out of his truck so I asked to go to the backing range so I could work on what I Really Needed to work on...no go...set me up to go out with Another Trainer for ANOTHER week UNTIL HE SAYS I PUT IT ALL TOGETHER...I smoke he doesn't . so this kid gets the truck I was sleeping in all this time and I move into the nonsmoking trainers truck....I kick it with this kid thru the weekend (I can smoke for one and secondly,he may well be very good looking but at the end of the day, he is Still a kid...) But a kid with crazy backing skills and in 2 days tought me more than I learned there in month! Long story short, going in and out of his truck apparently stired up a hornets nest...understandably so but I'm not in the habit of sneaking and creeping when I'm genuinely Not doing anything wrong...so now my brother shows up because I was suppose to be soloed and he was getting in the truck with me ...I put him up in a motel till I soloed This Fri now and off I went with This trainer! I was Extremely concerned about my brother jim...not much time to live, stage 4 mastic prostrate cancer...spread thru his body and its just me and him left now...so me and Jim till the wheels fall off come Fri! Rulers, Harding boss, gossip aside, I can do this!!! Only to pull out and find out we won't be back for 3 weeks and I lost it...she met my brother that morning and knew the situation and tried to convince me she didn't know...then she said just leave some com data checks so he can pay rant till you get back...I knew I wasn't going to solo and it also was not about the money...it was about my brother not dying alone...esp. In a motel room with no help. That was one of the most spiteful things I ever experienced...I'm Hard Working. I mind my own business and I'm not much on socializing.. Leave it to me to kick it with the one she was crushing on! But the brother thing was that straw...admittedly...I should have used more comments sense with the kid but it pisses me off that its hard and there are still prices to pay simply for being yourself...if I deserved any of that..it would be because of the stubbornness and pride that I have in not earring on the side of caution...my bad. But I'm not sure I'd change that about myself even now.

 

You asked for details...lol and I ment ...(rumors and gossip aside,I can do this!) Don't think for a min. That was easy when I was the Only female....holding my head up is à prerequisite For daily life,period! Much less in those circumstances...Unnatural opposition an I just (apparently) couldn't take it any more...I'm more mad at myself than her now after giving up...but I still would not want to see that happen to any other woman she may or may not feel is a threat ...catty #### and its embarrassing.even if she wouldn't admit any of it I called her on it in front of everyone she was talking to behind closed doors and told her a least I had the Kahonas to say out loud,to them, what they whispered about me...she made excuses and I looked like it was all my imagination...but I didn't have to prove it...alls I had to do was speak the truth and walk out of there With My Head up and try not to cry like a girl...somehow I managed.

 

Thanks...I appreciate the "care"...however, from the looks of this GS I doubt I have to worry about it for too long... sometimes we can make some pretty grandiose unrealistic Plans when we start thinking g about leaving this world....and that was his plan...going with his little sister inThe big truck...helling e with my preplan and map work He's a wiz! Smiles...my plan was a local job during the time he had left but things are moving pretty fast...

 

I'm not sure what you mean by "you people" but what I DO understand is the drama comment...don't think for a moment the whole female power play doesn't embarrass me...especially when I'm on the loosening end of it. I've wanted to be a truck driver since I was 16 years old... Took me most of my life to get here, just a walk in and have to deal with a situation like that right off the bat the beginning of my career, my very first job...Sooo humiliating in fact that if I didn't want it so bad I would walk away now and say #### them people And THEIR DRAMA and go on about my life...but I am tenacious if nothing else...