Forgiving what previously seemed unforgivable is indeed...nearly impossible. Infidelity. It is not so hard to forgive. That is rather easy when you let go of your hurt pride but moving on through it, that is quite another story.

Little things remind me of it at unusual times. Most recently the Gateway truck stop (now a Pilot). It was where he would park his truck when he would go to her.

I find the more I dwell on it the more pissed I get and I get little anxiety attacks. When I deal with it in small doses, I don't become as angry and can I can catch my breathe through it.

It doesn't catch me out unawares so much anymore. It has been almost a year since it has ended.

But the trust still hasn't started to return. Eventually I know trust will return, not in its pure form, no, but it will return.

So, all you out there who have been through infidelity with your spouse and your marriage was saved and eventually repaired, tell me: what was the best tool you found to deal with the issues of anger and bitterness?

I have been told by people who have gone through this that the anxiety remains for many years, the sadness fades quickly, and the bitterness performs sneak attacks at strange times for years.

And did you find, looking back at it all, you and your spouse and your marriage came out of it better for the experience? I'm not implying it was a good thing, just asking:

Do you remember always that you and your marriage are breakable and to handle it with care?

I didn't go through the same experience but another one that left the same sort of feelings: betrayal, hurt, anger, bitterness, etc.

It's been 7 years since he left. Only this past year or maybe two can I think about anything and everything to do with him without getting really upset any more. From this, I surmise it gets easier with time BUT I'm not living with him any more - but maybe it's easier if he's there all the time?

I don't know. I just think time really does help but I don't know if you ever completely get over the fact that what you thought was real and true and shiny wasn't and probably never was. That still hurts. Probably always will 'cause those best years of my life are gone and can't come back.

Don't know if this helps but I hope so.

available if anyone's interested. Thanks. Bye. Have a fantastic day everyone and a safe new year.

MY ex husband to this day, if I were to see him now, I would still kick his ###!
So I guess, I haven't gotten over it yet.

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I went through the same thing 5 years ago....he was seeing her while I was working and I trusted him....when I first found out I was so hurt and I couldn't sleep or eat.....and every time I saw him I began to feel rage toward him....the hurt had left me and now anger prevailed..I thought to myself, this was the man I loved so much and how could he do this to me? I beat myself up so much until I stopped..........and started thinking its not worth it...he's not worth it....so I got a PI and got what I needed to get him on adultery and I continued with the dreaded divorce and it was the best thing I ever did....it has been 5 years and I don't even think about him but did laugh when a friend told me that he had told her he had made a terrible mistake....but see he had to be taught a lesson and I now feel good about what I did and I have gone on with my life........I am sorry you are going thru this trauma, but I can't say the hurt goes away but it will in time....I can talk about the "creep" now without crying.....you will get better in time but I am here and I am a good listener....just email me and I will help in whatever I can.......plz don't hesitate to email me.......it does get better....

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I am sorry you are having such a bad time, but I went thru the same thing with my ex husband......he is in law enforcement so it was a little harder for me..........
When I first found out he was running around on me I went into denial and refused to believe he would do this to me...this was the love of my life and the man that vowed to love me forever.....I was so sad I cried constantly and couldn't eat or sleep, and I turned to my family for help but no one could help me...but me!
My crying stopped and the rage started....I got a PI and got him on adultery and filed for my divorce.....he had threatened me not to make him look bad in front of his peers and I told him "f*** off" and continued with the divorce.....I got my divorce in 90 days because I proved adultery......he was furious at me and every time I would get on the road in my car I would get stopped by his friends, until I got tired of it and moved to NC....he married the woman I caught him with and is miserable from what I hear and wishes he hadn't made the mistake of losing me.....now I am free and I can't say it doesn't hurt sometimes but it gets alot better as time goes by........
It will be hard for you too, but it does get better and I want you to know I am here and if you need just to talk or ask a question...I am here and you can send me a message and I will answer.....I wish you luck, because I do know how you feel.....take care

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I learned more from my ex-wife than anyone else, ever, but I still can't stand to be in the same universe with her, well,I almost can't stand it.

There are all kinds of infidelity, not everything revolves around a spouse cheating .

Now don't flirt a little first

Just get to the point

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I dislike being in the same universe with my ex....but he is my past and that is where I want him to be forever.....and you are correct....there are other types of imfidelities.....I can survive anything after the hell I went through with him.........

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I love the Trucker's Forum

I second that notion. I no longer have to fear strangers, because no one could ever be worse to me than the man that I married. It is kind of liberating to know that things will always get better since I already lived at rock bottom.