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Originally Posted by notarps4me  I may have posted this before. I had a buddy who killed himself. Tony Sharpe. I was the NCOIC of the casket team. We just came back from Desert Storm 1990. He stepped in front of a semi on I-69 in Anderson IN. I talked to the State Trooper. No alcohol in his system. Trooper told me in cases like that you can smell the alcohol in the blood at the scene. Tests revealed he was sober. Why did he do it? This has haunted me as a driver and friend. Why did he not call me over his problems.
I have never gotten over this. We rehearsed the funeral a bunch of times. When it came to the detail I could not give the commands. My voice was shaking. The casket detail reacted on the practice we had done. To this day I hear taps and my eyes water. Even before I deployed into a combat zone taps always messed with my head.
I watch a movie or hear it and I evade people because tears are in my eyes. I have seen a lot of death, but can't shake the sounds of taps. My wife does not even know that taps effects me that way. She was at the funeral. She knew tony. I told her not to look at the body in the casket. Open casket per his mother. His head was full of putty for reconstruction. Had on white gloves and the embalming fluid was seeping through the gloves.
To this day if I am watching a movie with my wife I do not let her see my eyes if I hear taps. I am fighting back the tears. |
no tarps,its hard to handle somethings,i to have been thru some thing simular,where a guy his name (armondo) worked for me and was struck by a 24 yr old kid after partying allnight on super bowl weekend,on that particular monday we were doing a lane closure, for the days constrution,needless to say it was a day of grief and investagations ,finding i as a superviser did do my job correctly and later that afternoon ,,,,,,my self ,my boss,and the col,of the florida hiway patrol,paid his wife a visit,,as i uttered the words ,man im sorry,armondo is no longer with us,,,,with tears in my eyes and my heart in my throat and watching her buckel asking why, and all i can picture is when i had to go cover his poor mangled body,with a yellow blanket,,,i carry this with me everyday,and as a driver i am cautius in the construction zones,,,but no tarps it will stay with you ,it shows your human and you care about your fellow man,,,so there is no shame my friend, hope you find it in your heart to understand this,,,,,,,,,,,dino
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