Scared Out Of My Mind

Hello all.

I work for Werner and I had my first accident as a solo driver earlier today. I've only been on my own for literally 2 weeks. I'm on the .99 cent store account in SoCal. My first solo run was from Denver to San Diego. But immediately after that I went on a .99 cent run. I was warned by other drivers that it can be tricky at some stores and so far they've been right but nothing happened until today. I'm at the store in Berkeley and I took out the bus stand. I made a right turn into a place new to me. I went around the area 3 times looking for the way in and I did everything by the book. The right way it turns out is on the other side and in my defense all I saw were spots reserved for the people in the apartments next to the store.

Now the police even said I'm not the first Werner driver to do that and I got at his suggestion store employees as backup saying it's a bad spot. I wasn't given any citations and I told him and my dispatcher I'm new to this area, first time here, and I had no training on this type of run. So far I've been learning on the fly and so far so good.

Now, I had a less of an incident when I was with my trainer a couple months ago in Wyoming. I had to do extra hours. No problem. My dispatcher told me he fully knows that this store is not meant for big rigs and realizes that I've never been here before. He did give me pointers and I admitted I could've done more.

Believe me when I say I am scared ****less about being fired. I worked too hard getting my CDL and this job. I'm trying to sleep during my 10 hr break but until I hear something next week I'm literally shaking with fear.

Do you think I'll be able to keep my job? I really can't lose this. It's all I have.

 

My dispatcher said the same thing about Google maps and believe me I'm doing it from now on.

I talked to safety a few minutes ago and from what the guy read from the report I'll most likely get probation extended. Nobody was hurt and no citations.