Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

You can't get what you want....Joe Jackson...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krmjwPW0KFk

This song is dedicated to you, on this Thanksgiving day...U4EA....

Hang in there guy...I need you to be strong...and one day there may be a pay off...just hang on...

While others run from me...cause their so shallow and dense...you run towards me...and maybe your right to do so...ya just never know...

What if I'm secretly a millionare???

And these bias bstrds...do to their biases...will have lost out...

(No, I'm not a millionare)...but I'm just saying....

But I will say this...stay strong and stay the course...ya just never know...

A good friendship is worth a million dollors....

By the way...do you play an instrument??

If I start seeing you as a little brother...than I can't allow you to fail....

 

First off...thanks for acknowledging me...I appreciate that...

As far as being in Florida...I love the weather here, this time of the year...so much better than Washington State...where I originally reside from...
I called up there today...and the tempurature is like negitave 8 degrees...no thanks...



As far as everything else...I just try to keep it real and raw...I think that's all people want anymore...and it's all that I can give...

Trucking can be a good marriage too...just depends on where your at in your life...

It was good for me, once upon a time...but like any marriage...sometimes you just grow apart from your partner...and one day wake up...and realize your sleeping next to a stranger...

If you have any specific questions...feel free to ask...

But please, don't let or allow my sometimes 'negitave' takes on this industry, to taint your prospects on driving...

But the best way I can serve you, and or others, is to continue to report it as I live it...until the time comes when I don't have too...

Anyways...It's always a joy when anyone stops by...expecially if their positive and 'get it'..

I'm no threat to no one...and those who are confident in themselves...will be confident in me...
Later...

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OcN2Zcg8UDw

I use to do a lot of things...

 

Don't ever leave me...please...just don't...




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bl4dEAtxo0M

 

Oh, last night was fun...it really was...



But anyhow...here's what has happened since...nothing...absolutly nothing...

I was suppose to rent a vehicle, and drive about 120 miles to visit an area and see such and such...

But here's what happened instead...after all that emotional drama of the previous day, being stuck at shipper and all, the long drive back..getting back at around 2pm on Thanksgiving...I was just too emotionally drained to then turn around and go anywhere else...

As drivers...that's a delima we face...we spend our whole week or weeks or even months away from home...and so then the thought of as soon as you do get home, having to turn around and drive somemore...just becomes repulsive...

Even in a car I don't want to drive...I just want to sit...literally sit and relax, watch movies, whatever...until I get the taste of the road out of my system...and then once refreshed, I can get up and do other things...

(but then it also depends on where I'm driving too)...

Sometimes I just get tired of moving and shuffling around...I fight all week to get home and relax...and the idea of having to go rent a car...at the airport...


(on a side note, notice how 'masculine' that lady is dressed? She's dressed in traditional 'Male' attire...basically 'crossdressed'...but if a guy did the same with women clothing..he'd be frowned upon or considered gay, a sissy, whatever...I mean why is it ok for females to intrude into male styles of dress, but not ok for males to intrude onto their side...I mean like in public in a casual way, why the double standard?)

And go through all this crap...just seems very unappealing to me...I'm handled like meat all week long...a lifeless piece of meat...and then to come home and be handled like more lifeless meat by TSA agents at the airport...nah...just to much for my fragile nerves right now...

And then packing, what to wear...at least in a big truck, your house is there with you...traveling by car...there's nothing but the car...none of your goodies come along with you...

In a car, I feel like Batman without the utility belt...when traveling that is...

Most don't travel...so when the holidays arrive...they think nothing of getting in car and driving 500 miles.



...but to a truck driver that's like blasphemy...it's like 'No way'....

I feel for drivers with wives who have no choice in the matter....

Anyways...again...last night was fun...and I'm just now getting over it...now I've gotta make up a decent excuse as to why I couldn't, or didn't, make that trip today...

 

Between yesterday and today...mind you I did practically nothing...I've spent approximatly $120.00....

I mean yesterday I walked into a super marked...and walked out with a few groceries...and other items...and the price was like $80.00 bucks...



I mean it's not like I purchased a computer or a camera or tools...we're talking small consumer stuff...and it all came up to $80 bucks...but it's stuff you need...

But the way the systems set up now...you can go broke, or not be able to save, just buying basic survival goods...

It's either that or live like a scrooge...and I can't go around like that...I've seen people who live like a scrooge...and nothing changes through out their life...even when money is good...they still spend and live like a scrooge...it becomes a mindset...and soon they forget how to treat themselves and or the people around them...

And then they die with millions in the bank...still living like a scrooge...
So i don't want to fall into that mindset of cheating myself out of the little things I can afford, and that make my life a bit more tolerable...

And tonight I just spent $30 more dollars on what? Bag of ice, deli sandwich, deli chicken, grapejuice, lemonade and a few other things...$30 bucks gone, just like that....

I mean it's not like I'm splurging on myself, buying the latest fashion designer shirts and all...or shoes...

Yet I see younger people driving around in brand new Cameros...



while dressing in the latest greatest fashions...



All while working at Taco bell....

It has to be credit man...cause I just don't see how they do it...drive a new car, live in nice upper scale apartments, always wearing the latest designs, newest phones and tech products...yet only work 40 hrs a week...or are salaried...

But still...how do they do it??

I spoke with one such guy...and he basically told me it was all a fiscad...and that he was broke, without cash, most, if not all of the time...

We, as induvisuals, do what the federal government does..we spend...spend more than we have...so then we borrow...and accumilate debt....

It's hard to go out now in younger metro type enviornments...cause everyones looking at what you have on...what your driving...kind of watch your wearing....

It's a world totally different from a Pilot truck stop...where it seems the gruffier you look, the more style points you get...

Oh, believe me you, I can still play that whole 'style' game...and go out and play...but in the back of my mind...just knowing what I have to return to on Monday or Sunday evening...destroys it...

Knowing that if I go out and meet some 'fun' people, that I'll be yanked away from all that come Sunday eve...and cast off into some lonely abyss....

The only way I can counter all this is to eventually transistion into another profession...or more like start my own business...cause at this stage of the game...I can't transistion into anything else, unless I go back to college and spend $1000's....

So, I guess that's what I'm doing now...is preparing for when I can start my own business...probablly something simple, with little over head...like a shuttle driver...little over head at first...with great potential for growth...

You can go from one to two to three vehicles...or 20...
But my aim is, whatever i decide, not to have to do physical labour anymore...

I would probablly make a good salesman, do to my showmanship personallity...
But I don't enjoy taking on that snake oilsman saleman persona...



I don't like selling people stuff, if deep down inside I feel they don't really need it...

Some defense attornies and salesmen probablly have similuar character traits...

With defense attornies, I say some...

Anyways...just excercising the mind a bit before I settle in...or get into a little mischief...we shall see....