Graduation in a week - still unsure of what direction to head in

Whoa. Gawd. Dang.

I passed today and am a CDL-A person. The only one in my class to pass on first try, despite demolishing a cone on home stretch. I left immediately afterward to go home and throw up.

I scraped through it, barely at 12 points. I wish I could tell what happened but worry about jinxing myself. Illinois must be the easiest state to get a CDL. Idk. I felt like I auto failed from the start.

I feel no more confident today having the license than last week dreading the tests.

I’m more scared of big truck drivers than ever before knowing they let people like me loose. I need real training now.

Passing was really anticlimactic knowing I have 1000x more to learn. I thought I’d be thrilled to pass but I was left scared. I don’t know anything yet I realized. Gracious me, I’ve barely started.

I called a few local companies this afternoon with no luck and applied with Sygma with confidence. I had a convo w Old Dominion & UPS and they won’t hire me bc I already have my CDL - in the Saint Louis area they are looking for people they can sponsor through school for that in a dock to driver program.

In retrospect I wish I would’ve done a local program like that instead of funding it myself and closing doors. I thought that saving and paying would pave my way from day one.

Much more work to do with learning how to drive and job searches. Nobody is beating down my doors like I thought they would’ve a month ago. I’ve got to put the real effort in now.

 

The scared part is normal. I wasn't exactly Billy Big Rig my self.

 

@Güera

The only thing I can tell you is, right now what your going to be doing next is going to be the absolute hardest worst part of the battle. Getting hired at a new job, learning how to do that job and also learning how to drive the truck it's self are all going to be difficult.

There's going to be much thrown at you.

You will have to contend with the driving part, but on top of that you'll also have to learn the job your doing. I.E. how they do there paper work, how the companies computer system work. How the company handles issues and there internal coding for things.

The products you are delivering you'll have to learn some of that, it gets a little tricky in the beginning it is a lot to take in.

When I started at the beer company the transportation manager said to me "Your at the hardest part of the battle right now and that's being new and starting brand new and starting out."

 

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Lo siento, no entiendo.

 

In agreement totally, although I don’t really know yet. After the state examiner shook my hand and congratulated me I was left confounded and queasy There’s so much more to do, I haven’t even begun. Brave new world which I know nothing about.

This won’t compare to the parking conundrums or tests. I’ve really just started.

Thanks for the affirmation, your time, insight and experience.

Omg. Sick to my stomach again!

 

Seriously though, in English - I don’t understand your meaning. But thank you for taking your time to respond. I apologize for the silly response and I’ll use the search function to decipher what you meant. I don’t speak trucker. Yet.

 

There bill more parking conundrums to come and other silly test that hasn't ended ha-ha!

 

Fastenal might have something. They hire new grads, cdl permit holders, experienced drivers.

 

You said you were unsure of which direction to go. My answer was WEST.