should i find another career

I blame myself...i really do.FIRST I did my schooling thru Swift and graduated,but thought if i went to CRST doing the teams i would make more money.I was there two month in 08 and got screw around.Then i quit but my dumb butt went back got with a good co-driver 4 1/2 months in 09, then things went wrong again...We did alot of sitting couldnt make enough to pay my own cell phone bill.And im i single dad .So i figure i would leave them alone for good and try other avenue in trucking,but no body will give me a chance ...i have all my endorsement except Passenger and i dont know what to do ive been off the truck 5 month now...i want to do flatbed or tanker but nobody will touch me.Can somebody point me in the right direction.And how long off the truck is it before u have to do the school over which i think i should maybe i can get that flatbed job i want...SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE

 

check the port

 

no exp. in tanker or flatbed and most companies are saying since its not a straight 6 month they cant hire me

 

thanks a mill

 

and listen i really tried to stick it out with CRST but man we drove for 2 days and sat the rest of the week i even tried to get another fleet manager an why did i even say anything they made things even more of a problem...then i co-driver quit so i had to sit in Cedar Rapids a week for another co driver cause they said i live to far to send me home for one ...