Preemployment Cannabis SAP

I've spent at least two days, two whole days, from wake to sleep, all working business hours, if not three, calling every company on this site. I am at a loss. I have wasted my time working restaurant, grocery, and retail thinking that I could some how earn a living. There is no way up. There is no increase. There is no viability. About two and a half years ago, it came to me to try trucking. Hell, I really enjoy driving after all. Two years later and I love it. I am making enough money to save on accident. I even have a nice apartment I am paying too much for. Things are good and I enjoy my job. It's the skills, the responsibility. I'm kicking ### and I know I'm good at it. It was time for a move to a new company. I had taken a vacation from work during the transition meaning that I left the employer to enjoy some time off. I wasn't employed. I wasn't under contract. I had used cannabis. I waited a month and a half. I climbed two mountains. I was in the gym and sauna every day. I thought this was enough time and it was not. After I packed my things and drove across the country to a new state, upon arrival I was notified of the bad news and discontinuation of engagement of employment with the new employer. That day, I got to work to find a new employer, and this system that is set up, and the ignorance of how to use it and what it means by a lot of these companies have me out of an ability to make a living. I just want to retire my mom. I just want to deliver my freight.

In my experience I have:
One year of team/solo, sleeper cab, 53 foot reefer and dry van, OTR
Six months of solo, day cab, 53 foot dry van/doubles, local
Six months of solo, day cab, 53 foot intermodal, local
Two years total through frozen winters in tractor/trailer

I do not smoke. I do not smoke in the truck. I do not smoke when working. I do not smoke when not working. I do not smoke when employed. I do not smoke when unemployed. I am not a gd drug abuser. It was my choice to use it. I under stand that and take responsibility for that. It is also my choice to not use it. I take responsibility for that and I have no issues with my discipline of application or choice. If I have to test every morning I will be clean. I need a shot. Please get me back into the truck. I just want to deliver my freight, earn a living, be responsible for my self, my equipment, the drivers around me, and retire my mom. She has worked hard enough and it's time for her to rest.

I am seeking:
Automatic fleet, (manual restriction. may be we can get manual added to license, let's talk)
Drop and hook (preferred), Live load (accepted)
Otr/local/regional
At least 2500 miles/week (can and will run 3000 consistently)
Minimum 5k/month after tax, 6.5k/month before tax (1250/week after tax, 1625/week before tax)
Home time is a few days a month. I don't need to be home I need to drive.
Possible entry into tanker/hazmat with oil/fuel (I am looking to make more money not less. I can handle the safety and responsibility)
I would like to fuel at Love's. Their showers and employees are nicer.
I would like a truck with Lane Keep Assist (newer freightliner cascadia, newer kenworth t680) [This is not Lane Departure Warning, the beeping thing. This is the system that keeps you centered in lane. It's super cool]
Long term company, possible transfer to lease, but I need to know we are going to have a profitable business relationship and that I won't be let out to dry be cause I'm not your priority any more.
I would like to work in one day a week to find a local gym wherever I am at. I will still haul this day. Just need a few hours to keep in shape.

I miss parking my rig. I miss watching the tandems carve a corner perfect. I miss doing my paperwork and interacting with staff and our customers. I miss taking care of the equipment and making sure it's all running up to spec. I miss being on time for delivery. I miss going to rest at the end of a goodlong work day. I'm just sitting and I don't know what else I can do to earn a survivable wage.

Please hit me up and let me know of options. I want to run tractor trailer again, this is where my heart is, though if there are other cdl-a positions of straight trucks for concrete or whatnot, I am open to the possibility. Thank you and let's get rolling.

 

Please keep your holier-than-thou, unconstructive, non-useful comments to your self. It makes you look bad and it instigates unneeded agitation. I am only replying so people can see that this is an active topic. I am not going to debate or try to engage with you so please don't muddy the topic by responding.