What "check for over drive" means ?

Rollin Coal, thanks for your advice. I do appreciate .
I know that is no freedom anywhere else. Freedom is just inside of each of us and when u want freedom we are just trying to escape from your yourself and your own reality. That's is just what i want; not a big project, is just something ok :
I will getting a paid off simple shaker and same amount paid for the truck aside for repairs and emergency and I will be leased to an small and carrier (4 trucks), I will work out with the "dispatcher" the loads that are interesting for me and roll it out. No forced dispatch, no ######## when u refuse a load...actually we plan to search together the loads...what ever is most profitable and that meet my desire to do.
My deal with them basically is they get me a fuel card and pay me weekly 86% of the gross less insurance and fuel.
I will use their trailer (old drybox), their Authority, Their IFTA, their insurance (except 4 bobtail).
I will need tractor, bobtail insurance and apportioned plates. I've a friend doing this for the last 3 years with them and he've been clearing more as solo driver then we both cleared as company-team with 1/4 of the stress, ######## and 3x more respect.....
Also, I'm officially homeless since 01/09 when I started in this crazy "career" (for me just make no sense pay a rent to be there once a month...stuck everything in store and hit the road) and i still not intent to pay rent, plan to stay in the truck...(like this nomad life) getting home time at friends places, family...CA, GA...everywhere i got somebody to stay with a couple of days..Laundry, always in a public coin one...
Well my big ambition is clear exactly the same that i cleared as Company-driver if so, I'll be the happiest man in this world.
MY ideal, my utopia in my life is: Don't be a boss and don't have a boss.

Things that I convinced:
1- I will be screwed, stranded by mechanic vampires in side of the road...what a horror...
2- I will be driving an 2005/2006 clunker; the only thing that I'm sure is it WILL break...and a lot.
3- I will blame why i didn't stayed conformed in my company driver position..."what a hell" but I've said many "what hell sh###t load is this?" all the time, so the tone will be just the same...
4- Would love to get out of business with that feeling "well, i tried, I failed, what is gonna be next stupidity that i will do? (it's hard, I have a big imagination...). I actually made a bet with one truck sales guy in Salt Lake "how long until I get out of business"...well, people really tends to judge my wrong...this sales-guy trusts more in me then i do (no, I'm not buying one new Cascadia from him, after i told him "I'm not intersted in your trucks" we started gambling...well, at least that will be some money from trucking...My bet was I'll last 3 months, his bet: 5/6 months before i get jacked...let's see.
5- At the end of this stupid venture I will sell my clunker for 5,000 or less just to trow away of that junk and try to find a job driving a tour bus in order "...use my CDL for something..." then I will rent a 1 bedroom apartment for about 700 dollar, make 2k /month and play a lot of pool table between "loads" of passengers...I will pay the gym for months without even showing up once, just to have that feeling "i can workout, i just don't have time for it"....
6- I will get another 60 pounds of pure and genuine Subway foot-longs, 1 at breakfast, another at lunch and the last before go sleep, awesome OTR culinary the only thing that atract me in trucking is food. It's not about money, it's about FOOD.
7- With that $ 5,000 that i got from the clunker tractor, i will join a "massage terapy" intensive associate degree at the same community college that i got my CDL...they have "awesome" programs under 5k (if I have english to do it, I don't think i have...but with 5k in CASH they will train even a monkey how to massage...).
8- Even not doing sex for while (i had caught my wife in bed with another guy in one of those rare surprise home times that i had, so...) i will join a sex-rehab program, just to have access to people "available" for.
9- I heard that those "ice-cream" trucks are very profitable, since I'm....forget it.
10- There is a circus in town...they....AHh, forget it...
What hell am i dong here !!?
NOthing;
but deciding where, when and how I will go.


THANKS everybody...

Braa.