Orentation and Trainer Time

I dont even have 30 of my 240 hours of seat time in yet, I just, shut up and take it at this point, I cant risk a long wait for another trainer, im low on cash (40 dollars before I gotta take a advance) and what if my next one is just as bad or worse? Maybe im just really that big of a screw up, shift too slow, keep clutch in when reving sometimes, miss gears, cant recover, have trouble keeping track of my trailer when pulling into places sometimes, swing too wide, not swing wide enough, etc etc

 

Well, as we have not hit a walmart sense I left a week ago, I have 40 dollars to last me #### near 10 days. The advance is 105 out of my next check (450) I should be ok, that would leave 345, 180 for my phone bill, leaving 165ish to last me a week...I would rather be a little in the hole, than not have money for food.

 

I have, and we keep missing them (Yes, honestly, a couple were my fault im slow on the downshifts) but, who knows, maybe we will hit one soon.
Right now Im just so...how do I put this:

Exausted. I dont think he is 'doing the first 50 hours' right, but all I know is I was told 'trainers truck, trainers rules, trainers in charge, do as he says' so...I d that.

 

100 dollar advance they charge me 105.

 

Unimportant to me at this juncture, and I don't know where you live but move. 30% tax is insane.