Fellas, I need advice..

..I feel like I am stuck in a corner. I currently team otr and have one driver in another truck. This being leased onto a larger company. I own 1 truck the other monthly payments made easily. Own 2 trailer. Have been on this team run for almost a year, pulling in good money, as well as from the other truck.

Heres the thing; I've been looking for a team to put in this team truck to keep this run. Can't find a team and its been months. The reason I want to put a team is b/c I would buy a new truck and still team. The payments can be made on both trucks.
If I get my own authority, my ultimate goal, I am afraid I won't be having that kind of cash flow from thatotr team run. In all honesty i will be upset that that money won't/couldn't be coming in.
I'm also nervous getting this authority cuz I want my drivers happy and to keep them moving. I figure since They know Im new authority hey should bare with me while I find my own loads for them.

am i being greedy and not thinking positively at the moment?
Again, thee ultimate goal is to go out on my own. The company Im leased onto allows oo to run with their own authority, so I can "keep" that load but is it worth it to have my own authority and lease to them?

 

Whats the thanks for?

 

Thats what I need to find out. Also when I get my authority I will regret loosing that run, and the money goong with it.
i dont know whether to just leave the company and go out on my own with the 2 trucks i have, or stay with the company and run back and forth weekly like a mad man(something I dont want to do but the money is good and is whats keeping me)

 

Its very tough going back and forth so frequently and being worried if i take too many breaks, I will loose the run. It's literally back and forth back and forth 7-8 times and after that we feel like zombies.

 

Thats quite a lot of trucks, 5-6; man thats a long time