I am losing my mind...

Read my post above.
I believe you, I have been there.
But seek help, don't go around doing craziness, you might get in trouble.

 

People cant possibly make this stuff up.........Can they????

 

Ha ha... Take it easy Man!!!

 

Your not CRAZY!!! Your just trapped in a humans body.You have pitbullitus..
Your a pitbull trapped in a truckers body.Go by the local pound,and pick up
several pitbulls to ride along with you.
During your down time watch "fight club" over and over.
Your gonna be fine..If you can't sleep,just smack the ship outta one of those
pitbulls.
Call me,we can team drive

 

Sounds like anxiety to me, I assume you don't have anyone at home if you can drive that much in your off time. If I read your post correctly, you only have a problem when you are home. So stay on the road if it makes you feel better, I regularly stay out 8-12 weeks at a time because I don't have anything to go home to either. If you are happy when you are working, then what is the problem? I get very anxious when I am sitting a long time too, especially if I don't have a load.Try to find something to occupy yourself while you are sitting, even if it is just walking around the truckstop. If it doesn't subside in six months or a year, then you may have a problem. Of course, if I am wrong about you not having a family, and this is disrupting it, then get help now. I know they make good anti-anxiety meds now, but don't know if they are usable by truckers, so it is something you may want to look into if this is really bothering you.
Good luck

 

There is NOTHING wrong with YOU. Its the truck, there is obviously a screw loose behind the wheel. Have it removed immediately!

 

tripping. hard.

 

And some of you think some of us drivers are crazy for using port a potty's and buckets in or trucks