The OTR loneliness

Classic!! That’s how it’s done though

 

I'll say this though.

I'm currently:
Posting here
Talking to friends on a chat
Reading the newspaper online
And if I had unlimited data I'd be watching YouTube. I've got 3 hours worth of shows I'm putting off until I either find a hotspot or go home.

Would I like to swing in the sack with a PYT? Yeah, but I don't wanna meet her parents, or hear how her day went.

 

I am never alone. Money keeps me company.

 

The OP hasn't been on here in over 2 years; maybe she's not lonely anymore.

 

I just read the OPs first post again. Came away from it feeling the same way. I think the comment was more of a rant. Hopefully the OP found what they were looking for. Got their answer. What scares me the most however is the OPs post reads more like a "note" then it does a question. I will continue my comments with a spoiler cover.

Spoiler

In 2017 there were almost 50,000 people that succeeded in committing suicide with OVER a million attempts. I'm hyper sensitive to this because I know some people that has did this. I hope this person is OK today.

 

The thing is Moose,
we may never know.

If I dropped dead tomorrow all of my Internet forums would just stop, one would know why.

And on that depressing note,,,

I just cannot get into the Christmas spirit this year. No matter how many Christmas songs I listen to. Maybe it's because I'm not home enough, or I'm not being spoonfed hallmark movies on TV, or I haven't even started shopping yet.

Which reminds me, next time I'm home, I gotta get a tree.

Maybe some snow would help?
I dodged 3" yesterday, came off the Atlantic and coated south Jersey, just never made it up to where I was, too dry. I could see it and smell it all day, but it let up about 10-20 miles south of me.

 

Well @Infosaur you covered a lot in that comment. First off I have a good friend that I have named to handle my affairs and execute my will. This person is in his 30s so I am sure he will outlive me. As it relates to TTR this person has agreed to come into this website and make contact with one of the admins. Have my account frozen (banned most likely) with a comment in my profile as to why. As I have said in previous posts I get several check calls a day. It's part of the agreement I made with some good friends. BTW a good friend is someone that will tell you the (TRUTH) not what you want to hear. My mom used to say a friend is someone that will tell you that your butt is too big for that dress. Anyway!

Some of that snow passed through Hampton Roads Virginia yesterday. My father died on Dec 24th 1997 around 3PM. Both of my grandmothers passed away in Dec maternal 1964, paternal 1972. Two Air Force friends died in Dec. I stopped worrying about "the Christmas spirit" a long time ago. Christmas has morphed into something I rather not be a part of. I am not Catholic, however this friend I spoke of above is. I have drew a lot of pleasure from watching his kids play. This friend spoke to his Priest about me sometime ago. This Christmas I plan to attend Mass on the 8th and help with getting some food and toys to some needy families. One such need is the family of one of our fallen Warriors. I am determined to make Christmas about what it was when I was a small child.

Let me tell you a somewhat humorous story. There is a 30something female that lives in my apartment complex. In fact her apartment and mine have a common wall. This girl is divorced and is a flight attendant for a large airline. In fact I have her mail box key and collect her mail when she is gone. She does a lot of international flying so you can see she is gone sometime for several days. Well one afternoon she knocked on my door. It was a Saturday afternoon. I invited her in and we had a brief chat. Turns out she had no plans for that night because no one had asked her. I can't drive but I told her I was always good for a salad over at olive garden. I had the time of my life that evening. Just 2 people out on the town. She knows my physical limitations so we did not do any dancing, but we did play darts at a sports bar. I told her I could get a cab home if she found someone, but nobody asked her. We laugh when discussing that night. She has a guy she see's some. because of that we have not got out anymore. However I do ask her for a ride to the store if I need one. And yes she is one of the friends that checks on me at least once a day IF SHE IS HOME!

 

I work better alone. Enjoy the solitude. Enough people in this world to annoy you.

 

Get a truck and dispatch yourself. Find ways to stop by and visit family and friends for the evening or occasional day here and there. I see my extended family and close friends more often now than I did when I worked in an office.

 

Ive had some good horses and cats in my time. They are missed. However the last shepard I had taken care of in a storm for a exceedingly brief time was one that had my heart. Long story short I dropped it off in Carroll County Animal and as soon that cage clicked shut howl. And that's pretty much it then.

I feel blessed with my ex (And vice versa) however there are days we limit each other due to a variety of factors One important thought is that when we have completed our goals for a given day being over tired is a dangerous time for the both of us. So we work on getting some rest for a new day.

I have alot to get caught up to today. Hopefully it will workout. However there are several people back east I will be sure to get in touch with again at some point in the future. You don't need 30 years to know it's a good thing among friends.