Sorry to hear this, Mary Jane. But reality is that your marraige was done for for quite some time and you probably knew this. I wish you the best. Remember that, as bad as things may be during a possible divorce (if that is what might be coming), learn from whatever it was that might have contributed to the conflicts in the first place. Be honest and brave with yourself. Dont worry about your husbands' faults. That is his' and only his' responsibility. When you remarry again, you will be more aware of your own weaknesses and strengths and you will have a much better marraige as a result. And it is ok to forgive yourself; every one of us has our faults.