Another doozy from yours truly

yea, 2 rookies.

Hey, I did research, I knew what I was getting into for the most part. I couldnt be choosy. This probably sounds horrible, but if I walked into McDonald's and applied for a job there's a good chance they wouldn't hire me.

Freaking Ironic. Im busting my ### to try and turn my life around. Im not taking anything for granite. But everyday I work here, I feel like Im trapped. Im doing everything the correct way, the company way, and everytime I look past tomorrow, I feel like this company is going to just waste me when my 6 months or year is up, ruin a chance at another company.

Paranoia runs rampant here with me and even with slackster. We wake up afraid of everything and some days wonder about each other, so I know where you are coming from about looking in the rearview as if the company and cops are gunning for us.

Here's the deal. I fully understand what is neccessary here in this industry. I had a sister pass away in training, missed funeral. Daughter's one year birthday, long gone. Personally, I can accept the unpredictability and everything else to make it here in this business. But I can only be accountable for myself. I worked for this hometime. Slackster just took that away from me. Ive committed enough sins in life and paid for more than my share, I can't shoulder someone else's burden. Asking for another Co-driver is a #### shoot at best, company not even willing to give out phone numbers at this point. Sigh........They are trying to broom me and even slackster one at a time or together.

Anyways, guess Im asking how much weight will a year of experience carry with other companies? In that time I will have moved a little further away from my own past that haunts me, but not sure if enough. Im afraid this is all for naught, especially if company somehow screws my DAC.
I don't even know how I slid through the cracks here hearing some of the reasons they send other wannabe drivers packing. But I did, Im here.
Im good at hiding in plain sight, but the only thing that has honestly done for me here at this company is ruin any lines of communication that build decent relationships.

Thanks for insight guys

 

Ive tried since day one to get her out on the road. I always knew better anyways. Young child at home and not the slightest bit interested regardless.

I dont even comprehend how the company can throw 2 people out there together who are completely new.. teaming is for friends/relatives/business partners/couples/etc... Certainly not for 2 ppl hand picked off the street, specially when they know squat about squat.

Good thing daddy gave me a good work ethic and some common sense or we'd be like dumb and dumber out here... and even still, it feels like that sometimes. The blind leading the blind. Just this morning I had to back into a dock that was from from ordinary, took me a good 15 minutes. Co-driver wants to be a helping hand and gets out.... After 3-4 minutes trying to let him guide me... I just brushed him off.

regarding turning him in...... not this time..... Besides, Im already on Co-Driver number 2. Can't stand the thought of being away from work or getting broomed out the company that way. Situation persists, then I will think it over some more