Help me survive another year OTR

I do have an exit strategy, even the ideal 9 to 5 normal hour driving job lined up for an internal fleet. I'm just not sure if I can last that long.

 

Its not that hard. The past year it hasn't even been an issue. I'll take a non exempt load west, turn around on an exempt load so I never run out of hours. Before, I'd have the 70 gone coming into day 6. Usually around 42 or 4300 miles. 72mph Truck with coast to coast runs. I usually park with less than 30 minutes left on my 11 and roll as soon as the 10 is up. I also primarily drive at night. Less idiots and hold ups. If you split the day right, you can get 13 hours driving logged and cover over 900 miles each day.

 

I don't like to go anywhere really. Covid canned our vacation last year. When I go home now, going anywhere is a chore. I have to make myself go do anything I enjoy.

 

I didn't figure. I'm pretty good at managing my own demons when it comes to jobs. 6 years military, did a few of my younger years as a rough neck in natural gas before it died in my area. I'm getting older, I feel older than I should and roughing it out is getting harder. But, I've only been at this for 3 years. Many people with more time than me, so I thought someone might have a tip or two, however unlikely.

I've got friends who love the lifestyle and after a week home, they're ready for the road. The second I get home, I dread the inevitable return.

 

I've tried that but I end up guilting myself for not moving when I can. It's not pressure from the company, they're so nice and accommodating it's ridiculous. I'm pretty sure I could crash this truck in their dispatch office and they wouldn't fire me lol. I wouldn't do that, just saying. I guess my thought process is if I'm trapped in the truck, I might as well make money vs sitting in a truck stop or rest area.

 

I understand. I worked as a CO for a year. It soured me to the point I haven't even considered returning to any branch of law enforcement effectively turning my degree into a useless decoration. Lol. I never wanted to drive a truck, I just had a cdl and needed a job. Here I am three years later back being miserable for a paycheck.

I'm strongly considering selling my Camaro. I've got about 10 grand worth of equity in it. The wife takes her license test in July for RN. She just graduated. Once she started working we'd be fine financially until I found something.