Introduction/looking for some help

Hey all, I've been glancing through discussions on Trucker Forum for years now but this is my first post.
I'm 32 from Phenix City, Alabama. I worked in the medical field for years in my 20's wanting to become a physical therapist. I met a girl and we got a place and I settled down. I soon realized that putting in my time as a surgical tech paying my dues and student loans while trying to budget for a home lady her son was an unrealistic goal financially. Decided to get my cdl once I finished all of my campus core classes, which would allow me to save money while on finishing my degree on the road.

I soon stopped the medical thing when I realized how much I loved it. In October of 2012.While at home walking to the mailbox, police pulled up to question me about a tip that they had recieved from my own mother saying that I had been using. I admitted to it thinking that was the smartest thing to do. And showed them pain pills that didn't belong to my prescription. I had started taking them several months prior after my father passed. Ruined my life. They arrested me. Set my bond at a ridicous amount. And set my court date for 18 months later. So I sat and waited for 18 months. Needless to say I lost everything.
When I got out in March of 2014 and tried to start over, I found employment to be impossible. I'm a college graduate, it was a one time mistake. I'm the same as I ever was just not on paper. I have a clean MVR and I have a copy of it. I have kept my cdl, hazmat, and medical card current. Over the next few years I have blown through my hard earned savings trying to keep my dream alive. I have taken a few odd jobs off of craigslist for 28 ft box trucks, and Last week I took a 40 hour refresher course and had my instructors try to get me on at McElroy. They reviewed and finally declined me an hour ago. I want to drive, and one day own my own truck. I used to aspire to haul cars, but now I may just have to wait until I can afford my own truck. Any help at all, any advice, any opportunity keeping in mind that I know the obstacle well and I'm not changing my mind about what I want to do, would be appreciated. You would have a loyal and dedicated driver. Just please don't take advantage of my situation. I know thats a fine line, but believe it or not I'm no different than anyone else.

My situation was handled extremely, and I have suffered a ridiculous setback. I'm not an evil villian, I just don't have a family like most and my escape from reality back then was poorly chosen and publicly addressed.In September my lady passed away after 7 years, congestive heart failure. We excercised every day. But we didn't eat right, so now I am a health nut, and pretty much on my last rope. She used to ride with me. I am very sad. I deserve a better life than this. Help if you can. Thank you very much. I will lighten up as times get better.

Talk to me! Tell me I can make it back otr!

 

Ok. Thanks

 

Im so

You're right.

 

We are very different, haha. I think she's extremely embarassed. She told my girlfriend she had no idea that they would do that.

 

You're right its harsh its more of a game where you make moves rather than a right vs wrong thing where right is rewarded