Orentation and Trainer Time

If the rookie is decent at shfiting, starting, stopping, and parking. I agree. I am not yet.

 

Plan to when we hit walmart.

 

There is some question on my trainers methods and such so I will describe the day so far.

Today we started around 9 or so, I would have to look at HIS log, as I was told to log myself in the sleeper berth even though about half the time I was in the jump seat.

So, that aside, he drove about 444 miles, and then we switched (I did take a nap during that time for about 2 hours maybe three) put myself on drive line for the first time at about 7:15 and started driving till now (10:15) and he wanted to take a 2 hour nap, cuz he was grouchy after that beign tired and all or something. After his nap he will get back in the jump seat (Where he was during all my driving so far) and I will drive to desitnation, and then, try to park, watch him get pissed off, and do it himself, and then we wait for another load.

As I understand it, he is going to do similar for the majority of my 50 horus and then we are gunna run teams. i know he is gunna run me hard till im off his truck and...I dunno how I feel about that. I dont know much of anything right now except I am frustrated, and tired of hearing how my school botched my training, how 'easy' this is and he cant understand why im messing it up.

He is a good guy, he really is, but man when things dont go right its so stressful, I mean I was ranted at because I could not find the steering adjuster thing with my foot, at night, while driving, and heard about it for about 10-15 miles.

I really....feel under-prepared, over whelmed, and that I am not ready for this, or cant do it. I dont know what to expect from a trainer, this job, or anything, except I am to be attached to his (fast walking) hip no matter where he goes, Im taking immodium 2 pills a day so I dont have to use the restroom, and until JUST now all I had was 1 square of cold pizza, and 12 pringles, and 1 water, right now i just ha a jr bacon cheeseburger. I dunno...all I know is...I dont know.

 

I just....I know the job can be frustrating, but at night its hard to drive, well beyond goign down the highway, and im so nervious when I try to park and he gets mad and raises his voice and gets 'blown away' by how I 'dont get it ' and stuff.....'straighten it out' can mean so many things for example, in this case he wanted my truck and trailer straight, not the wheel and he got all mad about it, I try to excuse it because he is tired but it does not make me feel any less like #####, many would say "suck it up and be a man" but...well, its hard for me, maybe im too much a puss to do it, or somthing but, it effects me when people are mad at me.

 

I don't like having to tell myh boyfriend "I have to go" because I know if I keep talking to him im gunna break down and cry, I'll be made fun of, but its worth it, if it prepares some rookies for what they are going to face out here.