Please help; too depressed, it won't STOP

I've seen this end badly 10+ times. It's something that never gets easier to see when you have to talk to the loved one. I have held moms that just saw their kid put a bullet in their brain over a girl. IT ISN'T WORTH IT! You can't give in to depression. Yes life sucks, it's hard, we get it but you have to put it in your mind that no matter what happens you can only do the best you can. Depression runs in my family and used to think that killing myself was an easy way out, but I found firefighting. It's something that I love to do for myself, not anyone else. I don't do it for the community, getting girls, or being called a hero. I DO IT FOR ME. This may sound selfish and it may be but I don't care as it keeps me looking forward to something. You have to make little goals to make it through the day, even every hour. Get excited about something coming up. You get to detail your truck so it's the best looking truck on the road. If you keep repeating that you can trick your brain to thinking it's the best looking truck on the road, and that makes you happy. You have something to live for, to get you through the day and excited to detail the truck again tomorrow. If you get to the point where you are holding the knife to your skin saying "I give up world" what would your mom tell you? Parents aren't supposed to outlive their kids, they do love you and would be heartbroken to find out anything bad happened and would forever kick themselves when there is something that could have been done. Why do you want the world to win? I am stubborn enough to say "F*** you world, I'm not giving in just to spite you". Why let the world win? You are someone and don't let anyone ever tell you differently. Good luck.

 

Alot of good responses. You don't need to be driving a big rig. In fact, if you disclosed this info in a DOT physical, you would be disqualified from driving. So actually you are driving because you failed to disclosed information.

You need medical help. There can be many possibilities wrong. I'm very outgoing and positive. When my thyroid quit working my hormones went beserk and I had severe depression for almost a year until the meds balanced me back out.
Younger people can go through depression from many things from a chemical imbalance, bad family life, drugs, peer pressure, etc. Those instances you can grow out of or get help. The human brain grows until you are 26-27. Anything in that process can throw a chemical imbalance. It's nothing to be ashamed of. In fact the gov't considers depression a disability and you can draw SSI disability until you got better.

My niece had anxiety attacks and had a hard time in her late teens and early twenties dealing with stuff. She grew out of it, now has a great job and is happier than ever.

Problems don't last forever. We all have hard times in our lives. You just tough it out, try your best everyday and things get better. You have to make an effort and deal with the situation. A year or two from now you will be happy and look back on this. Don't ever think you are at the end because you're not. Things always improve. Alot of younger people mature and things get much better in their 30's if they had depression and anxiety in their earlier years. If it's growing pains, you're almost out of it.
You treat people good and you'll get treated good back in return. You go through life with a bad attitude, bad things will come back at you.

Start by seeing a doctor and disclose everything. Maybe take interest in a hobby instead of having no direction. Hobbies will divert your thinking and you will find alot of pleasures.

 

There's a self-help group... it's called EA (Emotions Anonymous). It follows the same principles and guidelines of AA but it's for people with emotional difficulties beyond their control. Hopefully there's one in your area. Please check it out.

 

I've been out of work for 4 months, and believe me, I've had a tough time fighting the depression/anxiety. But each day I've told myself the phone call I was looking for would come. It finally came on Friday, and I'm just praying it works out this time.

Condo, you brought up something that I didn't know and I'd like to thank you for it.

Before I got that phone call on Friday, I called our local Vocational Rehab office to see if there was any help available to those without a disability. The woman kept asking me if I was certain I had no disabilities, and I kept insisting that "no, I don't". I did not realize that depression/anxiety was considered a disability.

That being said, I'm a bit on the proud side when it comes to accepting help, but I was feeling desperate about finding anything that might be available to me. I would like to change my career path, and was hoping something would be available to help with that change. The woman kept telling me that I've worked and paid in to the system for years and I am as deserving of help as anybody else.

Knowing what you've stated, Condo, if this job doesn't work out, I may check back into this type of assistance. One thing I refuse to do, is give in to my depression/anxiety. I'll fight it to the very end.

 

I really wish you'd let me know where you are. I really would come and get you.

 

It all depends teddybear how the doctor diagnoses you and the severity of it. I know a guy down the road that gets disability from it. Personally I don't see anything wrong with him, but I don't know him either. Let me do some further checking. I'm just now learning the disability stuff.

Edited: teddybear, type in "depression disability" in google and you"ll find all kinds of good info.

 

Condos right, Problems don't last forever. I wish you the best.

 

1. If you think its bad now, it can get worse, trapped alone in a truck in the mountains for three months during the winter in Oregon. 2. Seek profressional pyschotherapy. 3. Try the mental ward at your home state Health and Human Services department.

 

works for CRE and is at SLC tonight. Call 525-HELP!