Please help; too depressed, it won't STOP

About 15-20 years ago I had severe anxiety problems... vomiting several times a day and grossly underweight. There were times I thought I was dying and seriously considered that option, but luckily I found out through random circumstances it was all brought on by my employment environment at the time. I made a needed career change... doing something I enjoy and take pride in... and gained 60 pounds within a year. Haven't had any of those problems since.

Get help and do what you love and enjoy... not what others want you to do or what seems to be the "only option" available. Take your time... explore your options... and things will come back together. All is not lost and you have many friends... more than you realize... that are willing to help

 

I would think the diagnosis of "severe depression" would disqualify you from driving a cmv in the first place. Severe is considered the same category as mental illness I recall reading on my medical form.
Definitly you need to see a doctor and get their advice maybe they can hook you up with some kind of disability payment, better than killing yourself or someone else.

 

I dont know if this will help you in your situation and all but I was bi-polar, severe depression and the whole nine yards, was told was going to be medicated for the rest of my life. I got a dog. I love my dog, and she's always happy to see me and it helps to have to take care of another breathing living thing,it helps put things in perspective, now I have 2 dogs and am no longer medicated, I still have issues but am able to handle them without medication.

 

in my opinion, drugs are only needed if the person has no idea what they are doing. if you can sit and say "Im depressed" its your responsibility to change it. i was on 14 pills a day from the ages of 7 to 15. they did NOTHING for me. adhd, anxiety, depression, anger, impulse control, ocd, odd, paranoia, when i was 12 i was hearin voices in my head, when i was 11 i tied a belt around my neck to see how close to death i could get. when i was 7 i told my mother i was jumping out of the 2nd story window, climbed outside of it and hung by my hands. if she hadnt come upstairs to me yelling i would of fallen and well you wouldnt have me here today.



you dont get much worse then i was. i've thought about suicide more times then i can even remember. the only thing that worked for me was having enough of it, realizing i can either continue blaming myself for the things in my life, dwelling on mistakes (one i just made now, my girlfriend just dumped me over it today) or i can take control and change it. i did, not everyone can or does, but the power is inside of you. YOU CAN GET THREW THIS MY FRIEND!

 

I would disagree. If there is a chemical inbalance, or thyroid problems, or other medical issues, all the saying "I can do it on my own" ain't gonna do much.

Drugs aren't the answer for every situation, but in certain situations, they are lifesavers.

 

Whether by drugs, counseling or whatever you need professional help and it is available. You can't hope you can fix yourself. You can be a part of the process at some point but for now you need a qualified pro to direct you on the best path.

 

I really have no Idea what this guy can possibly do. But I do know he needs to be off the road. He is crying out for help. What can he do?

 

This person had the guts to post this on the web for everyone to read and criticize. I'd say that's something as not everyone would do that.

 

By the by....it's a woman. That probably has issues unto itself.

She is afraid of being homeless and for that reason wants to keep truckin. I find that unacceptable.

No offense to the OP, but I've called for mental health screening along with our medical.

How many single truck accidents are suicides? We couldn't ever know. With all that could be lost these situations need to be prevented.

OP has a fiancé. Perhaps he could offer some assistance?

 

yes drugs can work, but they arent the end answer. all the problems i've been diagnosed with are real problems and chemical imbalances. doubled with things that have happened in my life, its been a struggle. only 4 years ago i saw myself in jail or in a motorcycle gang, i had rage like you wouldnt believe that was constant 24/7. today it just sort of lingers inside me, only comes out when i'm severely provoked and even then i think long and hard about what i am gonna do. i have to fight the urges to act on them, it gets easier everyday to the point thats it really doesnt affect me that much. its a constant self improvement mindset i have.


im not saying he doesnt need pills, i'm just saying dont look to them as the answer, you ultimately are. pills can help, but look at them as a helping hand to a better way, but they dont solve the problem, they sweep it under a rug, as soon as you are off the pills you will feel the same trust me. unless you learn how to cope and deal with the things in life that are making you feel like this, the pills are only covering the problem up, and let me tell you, you do build immunity to them and you will end up taking so much that you're a zombie all day. been there, i've lived it. whatever the case is, i hope he finds a way out. being a prisoner to yourself is the worst way a person can live.