Struggling with training for fuel delivery

Alright, so I am currently training with a company to haul fuel, I have been training for 3 weeks, and its only the past couple days that I have had anything resembling a system in place for dropping at the stations. I saw big improvement in performance since then. Last week I cross dropped 1200 gallons of premium into unleaded. thought i would be let go but wasn't. Learned a lesson and moved on. Then yesterday the trainer caught me as i had my hand on API valve about to start flow, I failed to clamp down the elbow and had it just sitting on top of the fill port. he caught me at right moment because i forgot to double check that connection. I also forget to use bucket during connect/disconnect a little too often.

The rack stresses me the heck out but I the stress causes me to do so much prep and double check that i essentially have no problems.

3 weeks in I am beginning to wonder if I can even do this. Am i too forgetful or mistake prone. My trainer has not let on that he doubts my ability, this #### is easy but I don't want to forget something crucial and cause a huge mess.

My confidence is a little shaky. I feel like if i only did local i would be learning through repetition more, but we often drive 3 or 4 hours unload and drive back then the trainer does a slightly shorter run and unload while i watch. Is my experience normal or am I just not cut out and should go back to a less dangerous cargo.

 

the driving part I am acceptable as I have a few miles of driving experience since 2012. my eternal search for more money has brought me to hauling fuel. It is so easy to make a mistake on the loading and unloading. and that's where my doubts creep in. I really do not want to make the evening news for anything. anything.

 

the bucket i cant seem to remember consistently that kind of nags at me. simple step, seemingly unimportant. all i ever get are drops, nothing a diaper cant take care of. but all the steps are simple. like checking all the connections before starting flow. but that one could cause a little more than a few drops.

I will sit down and commit all the steps to paper in detail, that helped last week. lessons learned and experience so far will help make my notes better.

 

a metal bucket is placed under the load/unload port on tanker to catch any drops/minor spills during connect/disconnect.