Swift Regret

Don't feel bad man. I got my CDL through "CDL school" and only backed once...then I was off on the road with my brother and over 6 months I only backed once ( he did it because he was better and I was scared...) At beginning I didn't even know which way to turn the wheel. We practiced at empty truck stops...and I failed every time miserably. Honestly, at one point I was gonna give up trucking all together.

He quit OTR and I got job as a spotter. I did that for 2 months ( i backed over 100 trailers a shift. I work now for LTL company and back daily like nothing. Eventually...one day...it will just "click" and everything will make sense.

 

Scared is good, that means two things.

1- you are human and you are running 100%

2- its a form of safety waitaminute against you jumping off the deep end.

 

Some might say he banged it home....

 

Thanks for sharing...sorry I brought you into the share zone. You are amazing for all you have been through, and keeping keeping on.

Just TY.

 

One of my very stupid mistakes was my almost last permanent one. I was in Fort Collins at the meat plant there one night. I made it about a thousand miles straight in put her up wet at the gaurdshack. Not too busy but could care less being very tired. Dropped trailer got the bobtail out of the way. Jockey hooked on. Fine big deal.. Be three days before loading.

One foot in front of another step step step, work around this wash bay dock and steel deck a moment. See a big shadow coming at me from my right.

It was the freaking jockey 3 feet from impact to my body with my own trailer which would have crushed the body in half on the steel deck edge approximately my ribcage. I took a dive into a puddle of green. Trailer goes thump.

Im awake now. Time to find a hose.

Since that one, I have not allowed myself to continue activity a day or night when I am that far gone in my mind and body being tired. It has almost gotten me or someone killed once too many times...

 

Now that’s one hell of a “wake up call” that almost killed you!!!

 

I get woozy just thinking about it, tbh.....

 

Okay, I'm woozy. Hope you are 'feeling' a bit better. Was thinking about teaching my son how to run the chainsaw today.....thought against it. Got some fell limbs too big for the splitter that need 'pre treated' with the saw... and it can wait.

Thank God for the rain, I guess. Football day, it is.