Afraid to drive again.

The shifting is not noticable. The act of shifting that is. Unless the tractor stung me with a wrong gear by happanstance. In other words, engine wants another gear up or down, I make a mental note of it and it gets that gear. The physical act of shifting is not something I worry about. It just gets done.

Regarding the fear, you need to get over that. Grow a pair and hop into the saddle. Or go home and downgrade to a car license and put that out of your mind.

Nothing is forever in trucking. It has a beginning and a end. And fear is part of that experience. Its good for you when applied correctly. I don't drive or worry about the vehicle. it simply becomes part of me. I decide to go there and it goes.

 

Well all this BS blows over I'll come upto Amarillo and we'll shoot some trap. If you don't have a shotgun set up for it, I'll bring an extra.

As for the OP, meh. IDGAF what you wanna do, from the way you post, do us a favor and go work at Chick FIL A.

 

So you want an auto truck because you're tired of playing with sticks in your personal life?

 

Next time u complain about the auto we will make sure the boss man assigns u a 2 stick truck with spring ride to do ur 35 stops a day lol

 

Yeah i hated the auto too. Takes all the joy out of trucking

 

I'd worry more about the job/company than equipment.
If you can get on at UPS do it!
Figure out the transmission later, right after your knees give out driving package car.

 

10-4 good buddy

 

If you are still shifting you either own your own truck, run heavy haul, or are left in the stone ages the entire industry is just about automatic.