The journey begins - purchased a truck.

Just certain things, Blair. You're not alone.
BTW, Happy trails to Iowa. I grew up there. They're friendly folks, but not over the top.

 

You don't have to be a veteran to have PTSD. Any traumatic event or even a series of seemingly minor things can trigger it.
This isn't the place to go into it but when you have some time Google it and see what the Mayo clinic has to say about it.

 

In a past life I was an audio tech. Lots of touring, was Technical Director, FOH Engineer on a Juno (canadas grammies) nominated DVD. ( we got beat by Iron Maiden Flight 666) .
I had spend 4 years running a fairly large production house my boss had purchased at a song that was going under. I assume he paid Penny's on the dollar.
He kept the owner who ran it into the ground and his top sales guy. Both useless gready greasy turds.

I was put in charge. Gen Manager, EXCEPT, I couldn't buy anything, sell anything, hire or fire anybody, without the blessings of the idiot that had already bankrupted the place.

An untenable situation.

In my time there I out sold the both of them together, my jobs were ALWAYS profitable, I didnt get caught skimming and taking kickbacks from other suppliers.
I pulled MANY of the gigs they booked out of the fire and made them work, regardless how many hours i had to do to make it work.
Until I had what in hindsight was a break down of sorts, sleepless, high, very high blood pressure, eat, throw up... etc.

I sent an email, left my keys on the desk, locked the doors, and walked home 4 miles one day. Had enough. Best day of my life.

I use to ALWAYS be the coolest head, and always grace under fire, but after so much fire, I couldn't do it any more. My stress tiltometer would go off at the smallest of things.
Later i found, when on tour, tour mgr or tech director, or whatever, stress was something I could not handle well, or at all... and that doesnt make for a good time. I still find some of those things still bubble up today, many years later so I do my best to avoid those situations. An unhinged 275lb guy at times, is no fun.

I had gotten my license because I could drive anything, and we ALWAYS had trouble finding drivers.

So, I bought a truck and now I spend most days alone, no more being on a bus with 11 other people with varying degrees of mental issues or substance abuse issues.

My doc says its PTSD, it comes in many forms, and it's no joke. I don't suffer anywhere near as much as ANY first responder or military, but all the same, it's no joke and IT CAN GET ANYBODY.

 

Sounds like you're not losing money and not really leaving any on the table. That's a much better education plan than the one where you actually have to pay for the education.

 

I'm not sure why as men we think it's stupid and weak to cry. We have feelings and emotions, that's what separates us from animals.

We, as men, also don't do a very good job of grieving any kind of painful loss. We just keep it all bottled up and it's really not healthy. We were made to grieve.

 

I saw my mother in law naked once… full rear end shot after she got out of shower… I still see it plain as day in my minds eye… I #### near cried… I might right now…

On a serious note, anyone can get PTSD. People who aren’t military are subject to a lot of different things not related to blood and guts. One thing I’ve learned is everyone has a level of something that either gets them or has got them. Nothing wrong with feeling it. Youll be better for it all.

 

He will make money but he forgot to add in the cost of a few mailboxes .

 

I think Home Depot has a sale on them so he's good. Lol

 

Trophies, you mean.