Was thinking of switching to lease. Now I'm not.

This would be my last week as a company driver and now I think I won't be switching to lease. I would be leasing from my company instead of driving company. This last week they had me chasing late appt times. Every appt was a late appt. And I'm just plain exhausted from whatever this stupid game is. But I think what's really bothering me is that there are some repairs to my truck and I cant turn it in like that. It's really bothering me. I cant make myself do a return truck inspection without making sure the truck is in good shape. The bumper needs a repair, it needs an alignment and the power steering pump is going out. I cant do it. I cant leave it like that for the next person. The road assist guy said they'll fix every tiny detail but I dont believe him. It's really bugging the crap out of me. So I'm thinking of keeping as company and taking it for its repairs. And just keep plugging away at it. I dont believe for my life that they were up to any good with my last week making me late everywhere I go. And that means i don't believe the next person will be taken care of either. I cant do it. I dont really even want to drive anymore after stepping in the puddle of urine outside my vehicle but that day is just a bit down the road. When I stop, I plan on hunting bad drivers. No joke. I'm going to make it my personal hobby. After I posted on here that I had never been in an accident a lady pulled out in front of me on purpose and laughed. Except I didnt hit her BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN AN ACCIDENT. She looked like my ugly ex mother in law except with teeth. You all are evil. You are. I didnt even know such a person could exist twice but she does and she's some kind of evil in trucker land.