newb can’t get hired

Got my CDL from costal almost exactly 1 year ago. Went to orientation with schneider and due to anxiety got terminated after refusing to drive during training due to not having my meds at the time. Have not had any luck otherwise with job offers.
In southern Louisiana near new Orleans, terrible employment history(3+ years unemployed), clean mvr, need training, and looking for something OTR preferably dry van or reefer. Mabye flatbed even but i’m more worried about learning to drive without learning to secure loads. The school taught me enough to pass the cdl test and still have lots to refine and tune.
Honestly was hoping to get on with CRST or Western(yes their reputation is mediocre but my employment history is bad so I'm willing to sacrifice) but even over an entire year they are not hiring in my area. I have applied to about 30 or so large companies and almost everyone i’m aware that takes students.
This far out of school is my cdl any use? ie. bite the bullet and get a regular job for a year to get some employment history. Or is there someone that might give me a chance?
thank you for reading or suggestions
after lurking for a bit I know chinatown is my buddy

 

absolutely willing to take a refresher even pay the 2000 dollars or w/e it costs but if nonone will hire me its useless

 

That hurts a bit but noted

 

may recruiter said out of hiring area

 

honestly hoping the anxiety subsides with some experience even with the responsibility