Suicide by truck

Our camper doesn't have hot water and our toilet doesn't work because I let a homeless family live in ut for three months last year. They filled the tank with wet wipes. So we have to drive up to the main building to go to the restroom. The other night, he didn't want to wake me up to go to the bathroom so he sat behind the wheel of our jeep and started the engine. He put the car in reverse but couldn't press the gas pedal. He got out and walked in the rain to the bathroom.
He is just not ready. Not to mention, its been incredibly hard to get him help during a pandemic. The ER turned him away three times before his therapist finally made them understand how fragile he was. There is a lot more to the story but how much do I have to tell over and over? When he was 4 y/o his adopted parents blamed him for his little brother's death. He was scalded in hot water and they blamed him so they wouldn't get in trouble. Bobby grew up with that guilt and lived with it most of his life until I figured it out. Abusive, alcoholic, adopted parents blamed him. Even if it was a child's fault, you would never blame a 4 year old. Anyway. I only came here for help because I thought other truckers would understand. But they deleted my link so now I'm just wasting everyone's time. People are awful.

 

Yes. Thank you for the ideas. His boss told him to file for workers comp and then got mad when he did. We were able to get food stamps and they helped me get the job with the state but that is all the help we could get. They suggested we sell our belongings and move in with family. We sold our furniture but family is not an option. I used the furniture money to pay July's rent and gas money. We are just trying to raise enough to keep our phones, electric, and gas money to keep looking for work in the meantime.

 

I was not aware. I am sorry.

 

Once you start talking about it, it's crazy how much more common it is. The cop said it happens a few times a month. My own father had it happen to him when he was 15 y/o driving a carnival truck in San Luis Obisbo. My dad went to prison for two years when the family finally came forward with a suicide note. This was in 1948 but I never heard about it until this happened. People just don't talk about it.

And can you imagine what we would be going thru right now had it not been an obvious suicide? I wonder how many other lives have been ravaged like this.