Learning the hard way but learning,

Discussion in 'Experienced Truckers' Advice' started by Malt Ball Cult, Mar 7, 2022.

  1. Malt Ball Cult

    Malt Ball Cult Light Load Member

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    I want to share an experience in the hopes that maybe it'll help others and honestly if it helps just one person it's worth the time and trouble.

    I've been dealing with recurring severe major depression for decades now.

    It took me decades, literally, to find medication that works correctly for me.

    Everything was going smoothly and then, I don't know if it was pride or what, but I think mostly it was pride, I decided to stop taking the medication and handle it on my own.

    That nearly cost me my career as a driver, nearly cost me my wife, and it nearly cost me my life.

    I don't give a s*** anymore what anybody says about you know they can call me names med boy people can make fun of you all that s*** but at the end of the day it's about quality of life and it's about can you function in society and can you be productive in society.

    Without these medications I cannot do these things.

    Without these medications I cannot be a productive member of society: I could live on disability and that's not in my game plan.

    Just in case anyone's curious, I'm fully above board with all this: I've got the DOT forms for my medications, my doctor is on board with it all, the company is aware what's going on, I mean it's all above board and it's perfectly legal and none of my medications are in violation of the prohibited substances.

    It's all good, and ***that's the whole point***, is that here I have the ability to do something to help me be productive and my pride sometimes gets in the way and that is just ridiculous.
     
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  3. Lyle H

    Lyle H Road Train Member

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    Total respect for you and how you are handling your situation.
     
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  4. Malt Ball Cult

    Malt Ball Cult Light Load Member

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    Thanks but I have made that mistake more times than I should have but you know yeah you just learn and move on with that knowledge.
     
  5. bigguns

    bigguns Road Train Member

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    What people would think kept me from getting on antidepressants. Bad move. They don’t solve your problems but they sure do help.

    Congrats for learning. I’m glad you got on track and hope you can stay that way.
     
  6. Zero Fox

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    Don’t regret a thing. Mistakes aren’t always mistakes at all. It’s how we truly learn. The hard way! Keep doing what you’re doing !!!
     
  7. REO6205

    REO6205 Road Train Member

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    The best friend I ever had was on meds for depression. Viet Nam combat vet with diagnosed PTSD from the VA.
    He took his meds every day. He got to feeling really good and balanced and he thought he was okay.
    He quit taking his meds.
    Two weeks later he parked his truck in the yard, took his Glock out of the glove box and shot himself in the head.
    If you need meds, get them.
    If you have meds, take them.
     
  8. tscottme

    tscottme Road Train Member

    Good deal. Only an idiot would criticize someone for taking medicine.
     
  9. 201

    201 Road Train Member

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    I think it's more about what's causing the depression, than the actual remedy for it. In the past, people that were depressed, either lived with it( and affected everyone around them) or changed their life accordingly. I'm by no means advocating anything, but it's the main reason people, that don't have access to healthcare, turn to "other" forms for relief. Who's to say, taking "legal" meds is any better than someone who uses not so legal ones? I'm sorry, as TTR's "wet blanket", I don't buy it. I'm not any happier knowing someone is on anti-depressants, AND DRIVING A SEMI, that's okay,,,and someone drummed out of the industry for smoking a bowl 3 weeks ago. If you have to take meds to "function in our society", something is drastically wrong with the way you are living.
     
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  10. Malt Ball Cult

    Malt Ball Cult Light Load Member

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    Where did you get your medical degree?

    One problem with depression especially major depression is that the causes are not clear.

    We're not talking about working on a 5 horse Briggs n Stratton, where you can see that the air filter is dirty or you can check the oil on a dipstick that's not how the human won't mind works.
     
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    Don't get all huffy, depression is nothing new. I'm no angel myself, and have dealt with depression for 50 years, so I'm well aware of it's effects, and causes. I happened to know what caused my depression. My solution would make most disagree, but I did what I had to do to cope, rules be darned. While the causes of my depression are many, it was the way trucking was headed that REALLY bummed me out the most, and I got out and did something else, something that didn't cause me to be depressed. Healthcare folks love it. Americans spend a whopping $200 BILLION dollars a year on shrinks, again, THAT'S the business to be in. Take care of the folks that can't handle their life. I'm by no means an expert, but I'm sorry, I just don't agree with our modern "quick fix" society so we can keep working, and padding their pockets to boot.. If you get into any kind of accident, and a sharp lawyer finds you are on anti-depressants,, well, you just helped put another level on their house. I realize, it would be nice if, "get confident, stupid", would work, but I agree, it's much more complicated. It may be easier to find something that cures the depression, than adding to it requiring drugs, if possible.
     
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