Dealing with heartbreak during CDL training and OTR training?

I may be an outlier here but I find driving to be the best way to process traumatic events. I started trucking because I was driving my own vehicle for hours a day to clear my head anyway.
But

I do not get lonely like most people do
Sure I love companionship as much as the next human, but as long as I can be alone with my thoughts I am never bored.
If you rely on people in your life to constantly distract and entertain you, trucking is going to be a horrible horrible experience

 

I turned to trucking after losing my husband and realizing I was going to starve to death if I didn't get a job with a living wage. Trucking was the right answer but my grief was so deep and I was so alone out here.

I was lamenting to my big sister how alone and lonely it all felt and she said something so profound. She said, "But isn't it wonderful that God wants you all to himself for awhile?"

Trucking is a special kind of alone in which you find your own strength and independence. The view through the windshield is full of beauty. Maybe you would find real healing in such a journey.

 

THIS ^^^^^^^^^^
OP... I'am not going to give advice or opinions like others
Everybody is built different some people can walk away some can't.. Iam not gonna post a novel about my life story..
But it takes a special type to walk away then get in a truck and not look back
I know because I did it and it has its consequences
It worked for me and I have no regrets.. but that's me and I don"t much care for most people in general anyhow.. Just as @The Crossword Trucker said .. I find driving the one thing that let's me be myself and sort things out
Only thing Iam gonna say is Make sure your head is in the game .. and bring your A game everyday your in the truck cause there's no room for error and you get no Free do over's
What I can't relate to is what it will be like to have to share a truck & time with a trainer

 

Make sure you're clean from weed. Must pass a drug test from the get-go.
Schedule orientation for a truck driving school for maybe a month from now.
Which state do you live in?
We can give you some recommendations for a trucking company cdl school.

 

I intended to only take some time off the road beginning last year after my dad passed. Well that turned into over a year and hitting the bottle too much. Turns out if I had stayed out things would’ve been different. Now I’m sober and back out on the road loving life again. But it’s going to depend on the person honestly. What may help some, may be the worst thing possible for others.

 

That old saying... "the devil's hands are idle."

 

Everyone is different and perhaps it could work for you.

Personally throwing myself into this career head first actually helped me get over a few of my own problems. And it made a bunch of things that were going on in my life all those years ago just kind of fade into the background.

But I am the type that I throw myself into my work and sort of forget about everything else. It really depends on you.

To some it's definitely a breath of fresh air. But it does come with its own unique problems and challenges.

 

My insight is that you should go to Bass Pro Shop and get a big can of bear spray. Then you take the bear spray and spray the entire contents of the can on your boyfriends crotch.

As for trucking I can’t recommended it not because of your situation but because I don’t recommend it to anyone. If I were in my early twenties with no kids I’d get a college degree in a field that’s in demand.

 

When I was younger, I had an apartment across the street from where I worked in Austin. Like literally just 50 steps from the property line, and there was a 7\11 right there as well. So after work I would always buy beer and take it home. Since I had no commute, I'd get off work at 4PM and didn't really have to be in bed until midnight or 1AM. So that left me quite a large window to just drink beer all evening pretty much daily, and that's what I did.

Then I hit 30 years of age and I realized what I was doing was only going to go down one road, and not the better route. So I made a lot of changes, and that was ultimately what got me back on course. At least for me, changing habits without also changing routines is very difficult.

Not that I am perfect and I don't ever drink anymore, but it's maybe just a once a month thing when I go home, if even that.

So yeah, my idle hands work against me. I'm in that same boat.

 

@getinthevan --

Not so long ago--I was basically where you are, now (but my ex was not abusive--her family was EXTREMELY abusive, however).

Fast forward to now--I do hazmat tanker duty, hauling fuel.

Be advised....

• Trucking is a great job--for loners.
• Trucking is for people who like being alone.
• Trucking is for people who like working alone.
• Trucking is for people who can put the cell phone down, and leave it alone--for LONG PERIODS OF TIME.
• Trucking....in the beginning....is VER-RY STRESSFUL. Especially if you have/had sucky trainers (like I did).
• Trucking is NOTHING AT ALL like driving a car or other 4-wheeler. It's a much more demanding world.
• Trucking is NOT a regular 9-to-5 type job. Trucking is A LOT OF HOURS--DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY.....

Also--you say that you are in your early 20s. Many trucking companies will not hire you at all until you are at least age 23; some want you to be older than that.

If you think you may want to try out the world of trucking--now, or later--I strongly suggest:

• Don't get engaged, or married (trucking is super-hard on marriages--especially for beginning drivers);
• Don't have any children;
• If you don't already have a house--don't buy one;
• If you have a clean criminal history--be sure you keep it that way;
• If you have a clean driving record--be sure you keep it that way;
• If your credit is messy--clean it up.
• If you don't do/use drugs--don't start. If you use drugs--quit--and stay off of them.

I think you're smart to ditch the abusive boyfriend.

Abusive relationships are always toxic--and later will only make you more and more miserable.

Healthy, worthwhile relationships are based on mutual respect--and abusers know not of such.

Find a guy that genuinely respects women. Yes--that kind is actually out there.

--Lual