im back again. need advice .

as for what you say, tiny tim , i wish this story was embelished i know it does sound crazy and off the hook and unbelievable , i would still be in the truck right now if not for that . i want to drive and spent lots of money out of my own pocket to do so. i wouldnt have left for any other reason. the expenses that i paid and time i put into it was wasted, so no this is not embelished. you have the right to your opinion and can believe what you want. i wanted this job more than anything but im not risking my life of someone elses to make a dollar either. i tried to do this safely and he wouldnt have it. i was a long way from home and i sure would not have got out and had to hitch my way back for any other reason. like i said you can believe what you want, it dont matter to me. and as far as being a hot head, i dont think so. i went through this crap and was pushed twice before i went off. so not a hothead just dont like to be bullied and pushed around.

 

tiny tim, i know it sounds ridiculous and i have to say that i would have trouble believing it too. if i hadnt experienced it i probably wouldnt have believed it either, thinking about it, i do see where you are coming from. no hard feelins or ruffled feathers intended. i still am having trouble believing it myself and wishing it wasnt true.

 

tiny tim , dont worry about that, you have the right to your opinion no matter what it is. i hope to get back out there with someone that understands. i have experienced that knock on the door by a police officer. twice i was woke up in the middle of the night by that knock to tell me that my family member was in a wreck and didnt survive. i dont want to be responsible for putting somone else through that. thats why i want to try to be safe. i know how it feels and you never get over it. and as far as mentality, i agree that im about as bright as a burned out lightbulb but i will always put safety first.

 

i have definately learned from this mistake. im gonna be going out again with western. i talked to the assigner and that trainer has a lot more than just me complaining on him . i cant believe that after all of that, they still are putting me back on the road. are they that desperate? i dont care i still need a job and if they are willing to give me another shot after all of that, me hitting the trainer and all, then i guess i will try it again. hope to get with a better trainer who looks at safety and not dollar signs. if they are willing to give me a second chance, then i owe it to them and myself to try again. im still having trouble believing all of this . what kind of mess am i getting into now i wonder. oh well if at first you dont succeed and are given a second chance, try try again. i still cant believe that they want me to come back after all of that. they may not be that bad of a company after all who knows? the trainer assigner seemed very understanding of the situation. sorry , but im still very shocked and dont know how to feel or what to make of all of this.