how to refuse a load?

May gave you what you needed. One year experience. Clean record. Stable employment history. The door has been cracked open on your future. It’s time for you to think, plan, execute.
In the mean time run the load. Having the discipline to do what you don’t like doing is nothing more than life testing your mettle. Get out there and pass that test. Do what needs to be done and you’ll do just fine.

 

You currently work for May. You went to them for a job. They dispatch you on a load, you run it. They're paying you money to do it and you're a company driver. I can't sympathize too much here because you should have started making preparations to work somewhere else before it got to this point. I mean......you could tell them no. They may find another load. They may leave you sitting for a few days. They may fire you. The choice is not whether to run it or not, it's a matter of which choice May is going to make once you tell them no.

 

How about a nice club, hit you over the head.

You do not refuse loads.

HOWEVER.

Employment is at will. Quit and get into another company and fast before something really makes a mess.

ALL trucking companies have a small toxic pile of Loads in the far recesses of the drawers in their desk. They save those for the most raw recruits who don't know any better and sometimes hand one out as a punishment. Or some other reason.

If you do not like where you are staying, use the club to feel better. Why stay there? You are only beating up on yourself.

I have literally quit some companies when I realized just how it wont benefit me to stay.

 

I think you need a doctor more than a job. This post reeks of major underlying issues that seem to be simmering dangerously close to boiling over.

 

please tell them before you quit that the pilot in Medford is not an annex to there terminal and please quit parking there

 

I read over my post and I realize that it sounds harsher than I wanted it to. That was not my intentions. Thing is, YOU SHOULD NOT BE DRIVING. Whatever happens with you and May shouldn't under any circumstances affect your driving. Suicide? You're contemplating suicide because of a job? A job?

Go get some help, dude. Going to another company isn't going to make "suicide" go away.

 

First, I take it you are without a domicile, living in your truck. That's a good thing IMHO. You reduced your personal overhead to a bare minimum. MANY a driver has done that and been able to build savings quickly.

Now, let's suppose you plan to make a change, go with another company. Figure out where orientation is going to be, then put in a home time request for that zip code. At least when I was with Swift you could ask for home time in any zip code. Not sure how it works with May.

Be SURE you leave their truck AT A TERMINAL. Clean it out and ask for someone to walk through and make sure they are satisfied and sign off on receipt of the truck. IF your new company orientation isn't close to a May terminal, then figure out how to get there. Uber or a bus are options.

In my case Swift has a terminal in Oklahoma City and I started work with my new company the next day (after a one hour orientation).

Second, you want to make REAL money? DON'T MOVE SIDEWAYS. Your next move should be a step UP! I wouldn't necessarily think of Jim Palmer as upward mobility.

Questions: do you only want to pull a dry van or reefer? Are you willing to get sweaty? Are you willing to do physical labor? Are you willing to take a truck to places off road that would cause the normal OTR driver to consider curling into a fetal position?

Think outside the box.

In trucking "the box" is dry van (or reefer). You open doors and bang a dock.

Consider tanker, aggregate, bulk pneumatic, or flatbed as your next step. The drivers that make the most (on average) in this industry aren't pulling a box. Have your Hazmat, tanker, and doubles/triples endorsements.

Start making phone calls. Talk to drivers pulling anything but a box. Make your next move a step UP, so you can start leveraging your skill set.

 

maybe you can't make money pulling a swift box ..... but that don't mean there isn't money to be made pulling a box

 

True that. But Jim Palmer???

Company drivers for mega companies get squat. If dry van is the way the OP wants to continue, then start looking for small companies pulling specialized freight. Consider companies that pay a percentage of revenue to the truck, if they haul high tarrif freight.

Or then again there's LTL.

 

Just say NO or you could go there and find out why there such a really nasty customer.