how to refuse a load?

Your approach so far hasn’t exactly been wildly successful, has it? $550 a week and homeless? This isn’t a cowboy mentality, it’s the mentality of surviving and bettering yourself, that’s it. Nothing more, nothing less. Only you can change it.

 

Question. How do you live in your truck for any length of time and not have money saved?
As far as validating your feelings, if you're looking for somebody to pat you on the head and agree with your every thought and decision, you've come to the wrong place.
The world doesn't exist for the sole purpose of making you happy and secure. You have to find a way through the parts you don't like. That takes action and it takes some initiative.
You've been given some excellent advice in this thread. Grow up, quit whining, and take some of it.

 

Now you're talking! Where are you thinking of living? That's going to be a huge factor for local driving opportunities.

 

Now we are talking. Everyone is uncomfortable leaving a steady income and having certainty and stability. I have rarely left a job that I regretted leaving, maybe 1 in my life. LTL is a very good job once you get into it. Check out @Chinatown posts about companies and LTL threads on here. Good luck.

 

Central Transport.
Crap equipment I looked up their snapshot, a crap ton of equipment violations.