Loner or outgoing personality. which are you?

I am alone. Believe it or not. From the very beginning.

That has been useful. But there are times it's necessary to deal with people. Some good some bad. It did not become a problem until after elementry school when I ran into Bullies during middle school. Keep in mind it was a much different time. If you did not fight and club bully into submission you were forever marked to be preyed upon the rest of your years there and possibly through high school too. That's not a welcome concept.

It turns out the bullies Ive finally hurt when cornered did not understand me. 1200 kids were all normal and here is this ... this deafie in a short bus what is this kid doing here in the center line of our football team? What is this abomination? Etc. That my friend is a spirit to fill the breach in the line when the opponent must be stopped.

I don't always do well. I happen to be at my best in battle so to speak where you don't have to think at all. Or.. you have already gone into the future say 5 steps ahead of a developing crash long before anyone knew what's up Im already working the problem.

I also say I will be taken out when something I don't see coming gets me. That's fine. I lived life on my terms, did everything I thought was good to do and that's it. No more complications from being either alone or in a group.

Here is the rub.

Society in all of my years from 3 all the way to past 50 has imposed upon me one rule that I have to comply with and not just do, but exceed.

"Whatever we can do, you have to do twice better to prove yourself idiot" due to discrimination to handicapped or other problems.

That turned me into a sort of a monster actually. My parents would be the first to tell you I never take on a task without preparing a 1000 answers for every possible outcome. And to fix it before it becomes a mess.

Im just happy I got away with this so called game of life thus far. It could have been worse or not at all many times.

Once in a while I will get into a situation for which I have nothing to draw on, so I make the best of it. That happened years ago in the Auction house when our overall boss said he needed a crew boss. Who is willing to volunteer.

Like a dummy I took a step forward. He gave me 20 truckers and the tools and told us get going yer late we need this barn to get started.

Now I have 20 children. Whew. What a day that was. It was a good day.

 

Reading and writing is very private, it doesn't require listening, body language, or immediate response.

 

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As far as I can tell you’re all either bots run by the megas or figments of my imagination.

LOOK A SQUIRREL!!

 

But it is social interaction, and albeit heavily laden with dark driver humor, sarcasm, and understanding, of the intellectual type.

 

I've spent a little time over the years trying to figure out the best way to describe myself.

I'm unsocial. Not antisocial.

I am happy without anyone around, and prefer to be alone if I have a choice, but I dont have a problem joining an open conversation or chatting with folks sitting near me. Sometimes I will even start a conversation. But I never actively seek out company other than family.

 

I'm not going to be labeled anymore. Labeling is bad.

 

I don't think I agree with all the labels they throw around. To me, it's like programming. The Prince wanted to use the bathroom by himself. By definition, he would be a loner, right? Well, heck...I don't think any sane person wants to take a dump with an audience. I also don't agree with that alpha beta omega sigma crap either. More "programming."

 

I'm a loner but I enjoy shootin the #### with other drivers while getting fuel or in a truckstop in the driver's area.
Just like Pee Wee said: