The Perils of Bringing the A Game

There's one at my terminal now. Always asking questions, in other people's business.

You could almost fool yourself into believing that he's just a really curious guy, until he got caught dropping a dime on someone when it HAD to be him.

Cool man. I don't know nothing about this job. I just work here. It's all a blur to me.

 

Life itself is an absolutely relentless game of hold your head above water, at least in my case it’s been. I’m 16, my mother (who was my rock) dies from cancer and my life is ripped from under me. I move from family to friends and all in between. Homeless as a teenager, I had a handful of people that tried to help but the scars my dad left me with made me feel so undeserving of other people’s genuine care, concern, and frustration that I would self sabotage and believe that everybody would abandon the relationship/friendship. I was the areshole because I was traumatized from the shock my moms early death and the immediate abandonment from my dad.

For three years I became infested with drugs and alcohol. I spent 8 months backpacking/hitchhiking from Huntington Beach, Ca to Seattle, I stayed 6 months in crack infested chicago. Bounced all over the states, stealing my way to all my meals, manipulating people to get money to survive, destroying myself in the whole process.

I guess this a rant about instead of how much the world can be an areshole, maybe there’s been one person in particular who has hardened your heart so badly that you’re near incapable (currently!) to feel the care and love others want to offer. A lot of people care, and a lot of people can relate to the relentlessness of this life we share, you don’t have to celebrate your success alone. Just be genuine yourself and appreciate the success in others around you. All things come back full circle.

forward to the current place I’m in. I’m 27, a father to three daughter and happily married. I’ve successfully turned my life around with a lot of help from others. I went straight to O/O and trade stocks. I’ve been healed from the abandonment from my father by becoming a father that will be relentless in my life to my family. I try everyday to help and care for most everybody I come across.

 

Indeed. Everyone jockeying for "better" routes or to move off the dock etc etc are all up in anybody's business they can push their way into.

 

If you want to read examples of pure hatred, for absolutely no reason at all, go to the thread What If It Snows, and starting at post 94878 begin reading for the next dozen or so posts.
I was crapped on for driving a pickup, and not using a snowmobile to get around.
Not that mine even has a tow hitch, but is highly illegal to ride hwys, streets in town, or such. And we only have snow part of the year, besides they plow the hwy and streets i need to use, so can't ride it on them even if I wanted to.
Can't even think of anyone who has a sled with a hitch on it, or a trailer to tow behind one.
Mountain sleds need deep snow or they overheat.
Yet because of my having an F150, and not riding a sled all the way to the city, and for running around, I got pure hatred.
Actually I at first thought moderators would delete that series of threads, but nothing was done. Seems that people just hate, for any reason at all.
Especially when they feel their masculinity is bruised by a woman.
Up till then, never a nasty word between us.
Just sudden, and for being law abiding, instead of a criminal.
The part that really made me chuckle was that pickups are inefficient. But my sled uses 3 times as much gasoline per mile, as my F150 does. His excuse was because of my driving a pickup to begin with, that escalated to my having to be a liar because I don't tow with my sled, or use it for errands.
Handed my phone to my sister to read that, she laughed first, then said "someone is both jealous, and his manhood feels crushed".
Then I got many PM messages supporting me on said topic. Bizarre moment in my life for sure.
That was a good example of being hated, for being a woman. But instead of saying that outright, he went off on a tangent about pickups, and sleds.

 

Glad you got out of the rough phase of your life, are now successful, and have a beautiful family.

 

I have a strong determination to not allow what other people do change who I want to be.
I want a positive outlook on life and humanity. I don't want to see everything and everyone in a negative and suspicious light.
Now if the world and people in it would just stop ##### me over it sure would be easier.

I said that's life
(That's life)
And as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks
Stomping on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down
Cause this fine old world, it keeps spinnin' around