depressed owner op needs help going back to flatbed

Well I bough a truck about 3 mos ago to haul intermodal in Memphis TN. U know home every night and all that. well its not worked out that good. I can get home ,but to make a good check U really have to stay out most nights and weekends. So much for the promised land. Anyway I loved my old Flatbed job mostly hauling steel out of Blytheville AR then back loading as close to as I could get to Blytheville then doing it again. The rates in that area are great and i could get through the house 2 times a week with at least 1 day off every week end sometimes more, and could make 900 to 1200 hundred as a company driver. The problem I'm having is the company I did this with only has 3 trucks and isn't willing to let me lease on. Anyone know who I could lease on with that is good and I could do sort of the same type sit-up. or should i just shoot my self for buying a truck and quiting a great job?

 

I don't have my authority. I'm a little nerves about getting it. I'm pretty new to the o/o side of things, feel I have alot to learn before I take take that step.

 

I think u'er right but things have went so bad. I'm working 7 days a week just to maintain the money I put back and make a living and I really can't afford to make another mistake. I know CRST promises the world. I have read good and bad about them. but like the fact u can rent a trailer and they do have a agent right in that area.Landstar and mercers they sound good by the post I've read but LS u need HAZ does anyone know if ether of them lease trailers. I have the money to buy one but hate to dig that deep into my savings.