forfeiture of CDL?

Have had my CDL for three years. Had a minor fender-bender and tested positive for alcohol. Cutrrently in treatment program. Employer then began pattern of harrassment which I endured for a month.
Came up for a random and refused. Quit job. (Yeah, I know it was stupid.) Just received a CDL application in the mail from the State! Don't think I can legally sign it saying that I am not under a cloud. Do I just surrender my CDL now? If so, for how long? This is the first black mark on my record EVER.

 

wow. needed to hear that.

So, taking one day at a time, staying in treatment, do I just surrender my CDL now or what?

There is more background to this, but it matters not.
Bottom line is I did know better. Have no excuses.

I've read some of your other posts and have come to respect you greatly.

 

Drove for three years in another state 20 years ago, did the corporate cubicle thing for twenty years, then got a CDL in my current state three years ago. That's where the six years of driving comes from.

I agree, if I was reading this as someone else's post, I'd have no sympathy either. Not looking for any. Just want to know what happens next. Do I just mail my CDL to the State?

Thanks.

 

Thanks Desperado. I don't take offense or hate anyone for saying how they feel or what they think.
Can't change anything that has happened; just have to deal with what is. And yes, thank God I didn't hurt anyone.

 

Understood.
Wasn't drinking in my truck or on the job. Was the night before.
Thought I was OK the next day (that's what it does ~ distorts your judgement).
Thank you for your comments.