end of the road for me

it was a terrible experience one that never wish to go through again. im from the old school camp. whatever happened to going to work on time, doing, your job and as long as you weren't doing anything illegal, committing theft, or getting intoxicated on the job you got left alone. i lost my job back in july and im still dealing with this crap. its mentally and physically draining. it causes me depression, and im tired of it. the day i left for werner i actually cried. i felt like i was having my left arm forcibly removed. i had NO desire to leave my wife of 12 years home alone. my son had to go to my mother every day. he has not known normalcy since. this place has other issues. the drivers that deliver milk are also not allowed to smoke. they smoke in their trucks in the bay with open milk tankers. you can sometimes smell it. that general manager was nothing short of a snowflake. i personally hate the man and the grief that he has cause me and my family. i would love the chance to sucker punch him right in the face.

the day i got fired, the last words i said to my boss; this has to be the dumbest reason anyone has ever been terminated in the history of job termination.

the other issue, people loose jobs. the economy needs to have better paying jobs to replace them. i was lucky to land an interview for a job starting at $14 and somehow i should be thrilled its higher then almost everything else around here. its also $5 less then i made previously. i have to come to grips, if i want a quality of life im never going to make what i made.

my wife works at a hospital, they have a mental health unit. yesterday a patient came to the hospital that attempted to commit suicide. he lost his job and decided life wasnt worth living anymore. he slit his wrists, but according to my wife he didnt do it right and the attempt failed. how sad, i know exactly what it is like to live with that level of depression caused by job loss.

 

personally the fact i wasnt even allowed to go and vape in my car was the last straw. who am i hurting by going to my car and vaping on my own break. you cant even prove im hurting myself. at that point it became nothing more then we want to control you. im there to do a job and do it better then anyone else, but im not there for them to try to control my personal and legal habits.


the poetic justice off all of this, the guy that replaced me is useless and lazy. i still keep in touch with one of my former co-workers through facebook. these jerks got what they had coming to them.

when i started at this place the plant was not open yet. i was one of the first employees, brought in the first trucks and received the first milk. i came to them with multiple years of knowledge on how everything worked. they hired me because i knew the industry and what needed to be done. in short they used me and when the plant got running i didnt fit their little "mold" so they threw me a away with the weekly trash. i feel very used. going there was a HUGE mistake

 

i get this, but if i have no intention of driving a commercial vehicle, what is the purpose of keeping my physical current? any company that might hire me in the future would give a physical anyways. all just a money grab