Graduation in a week - still unsure of what direction to head in

Whoa. Gawd. Dang.

I passed today and am a CDL-A person. The only one in my class to pass on first try, despite demolishing a cone on home stretch. I left immediately afterward to go home and throw up.

I scraped through it, barely at 12 points. I wish I could tell what happened but worry about jinxing myself. Illinois must be the easiest state to get a CDL. Idk. I felt like I auto failed from the start.

I feel no more confident today having the license than last week dreading the tests.

I’m more scared of big truck drivers than ever before knowing they let people like me loose. I need real training now.

Passing was really anticlimactic knowing I have 1000x more to learn. I thought I’d be thrilled to pass but I was left scared. I don’t know anything yet I realized. Gracious me, I’ve barely started.

I called a few local companies this afternoon with no luck and applied with Sygma with confidence. I had a convo w Old Dominion & UPS and they won’t hire me bc I already have my CDL - in the Saint Louis area they are looking for people they can sponsor through school for that in a dock to driver program.

In retrospect I wish I would’ve done a local program like that instead of funding it myself and closing doors. I thought that saving and paying would pave my way from day one.

Much more work to do with learning how to drive and job searches. Nobody is beating down my doors like I thought they would’ve a month ago. I’ve got to put the real effort in now.

 

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Lo siento, no entiendo.

 

In agreement totally, although I don’t really know yet. After the state examiner shook my hand and congratulated me I was left confounded and queasy There’s so much more to do, I haven’t even begun. Brave new world which I know nothing about.

This won’t compare to the parking conundrums or tests. I’ve really just started.

Thanks for the affirmation, your time, insight and experience.

Omg. Sick to my stomach again!

 

Seriously though, in English - I don’t understand your meaning. But thank you for taking your time to respond. I apologize for the silly response and I’ll use the search function to decipher what you meant. I don’t speak trucker. Yet.