a little advice about where to live

I've met a few guys like you before. Most were brow beaten by their mothers while growing up. Didn't matter what they did, the mother found fault with it. You're in an emotional prison and the way out is to leave home and don't look back. One friend of mine went through that growing up plus his father physically beat him with his fists. Right now he lives in the Philippines with his Pinoy wife and 3 children and happy as can be. He cut all contacts with his parents and didn't even go to his fathers funeral when he heard the guy died. He knew if he did contact his parents they would just belittle him and yell and scream, so he cut them out of his life forever.

 

What happened to that car? You are correct, you can find a reliable vehicle for under 2 grand.

 

OP you need to get out of OTR. Your truck has literally become your own personally prison. I've been there before when I did OTR when it felt the walls were caving in and at one point I even got so down as to believe this is all there is in life. OP that is depression and it will kill you not right away but it will take years off your life. I got out of the truck and I will never do OTR again because I felt like a slave inside a prison in that truck. The only way for me to get out of that mindset was to leave OTR and that was one of the best decisions I ever made in my entire life.

First thing you need to do is find a job where you can be home daily and off two days a week whether it's a trucking job or something else. Doing that will get you out of the "prison" and help you be able to live a somewhat normal life. Your right women don't want a man who is never around. However they like a man who works hard even if it means they can't go out and do things together during his work week due to lack of time...that's actually pretty common in a lot of relationships.

Second you need to break things off with your family. If they are nothing but a source of negativity and pain then they don't deserve to be in your life at all. It's your life OP. You are your own master. If you give others power over you they will use it how they see fit and not how you want them to use it. That is what is going on between your parents and yourself right now. Get your key back from step parent. Get your mom's name off your bank account as well...it wouldn't surprise me if your money is going missing because your family is spending it.

Third thing you need to do is talk about your problems with others that will help you. This doesn't mean you have to fork over a $100 or more a week for therapy sessions. I know your not religious but a priest or pastor qould at least be willing to listen to your problems if you need someone to talk to desperately. It won't cost you anything other then maybe attending a service or two in payment for them listening to you. Who knows maybe it will help you connect with others and help get your depression under control.

 

1. because of the things you like, we all have wierd ways dont mean anything. and I wasnt trying to insult you. 2. you can spend as much as you want for a car, but if ya spend a little more you get a newer car, less milage, and hopefully more reliable. 3. I meet allkinds of crazy woman out here, thats why Im single.

 

I thought the same thing until I met a woman interested in dating. Don't spend that much time dwelling over what you don't have. The right person for you will come along when you least expect it to happen.

 

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I'm not a doctor but sounds like you could use some sort of counseling, maybe an anti-depressant. Nothing wrong with that either. It sounds like you worry a lot and are a pleaser. First thing is quit worrying about things you have no control over. Girls either like you or they don't. Some will like you but only as a friend etc. They can definitely tell though if you are trying too hard. You need to act as if you don't care whether they talk to you or not. They do expect a man to have his own place though. That's something you should work on getting. Your physical attractiveness isn't as important as you think. You need to take care of obvious hygiene things and wear clean clothes etc, but most girls aren't as superficial as guys are when it comes to looks.

 

Um what girls u been dating that ain't superficial about a guys looks. All them are.

 

I'm here brainstorming ideas as I prepare to ditch my house, most of my belongings, and go full time OTR. I'm glad to see the RV idea was mentioned, as the mailbox in a state without income tax. Keep in mind monthly RV spots can run upwards of $500/mo in or near metro areas. That comes close to renting an apartment. An alternative is to put the sucker in storage for 27 days a month (that's what, like $40/mo?), pull it out for the three days you're home (another $20/day in a campground), and park it again when you head out on the road. For $100/mo (+whatever you spend on the RV) you can own your residence, yet not be tied down to a single location... giving you mobility as you advance your career.

I have pilot friends who claim to have pilot friends who live in houseboats. They dock them up north in the summer, then move them down south in the winter. Giggity. The drawback there is the expense of the seasonal moves, and the uncertainty of leaving something in the water unattended for weeks at time. Also, I know pilots who've shared crash pad aptartments in various cities. You may be able to find a group willing to sign you on.

 

slip rent for boats can be very high as well avg between 500-1000 per mt. ( In So. MD. ) and the fuel is ...well its alot ! no house boat or cabin cruiser get very good MPG's. Good Idea about storing rv when not in use, as long as ya dont mind hooking and un hooking ETC...