Backing out of CDL school before starting

I'm a 29 year old who only recently found out that he needs to get his life in order. Trucking has been something I've wanted to do for years, many family members are truckers, and currently at this age, the only qualifications I have involve flipping burgers and counting change, so trucking sounded like the opportunity to make something of myself.

So I set out to apply to CDL schools, the grants aren't an option for me currently, so I called CR England after applying and was happy to discover I was accepted (who isn't though lol) and started the process.

Last week I obtained my medical certificate which doesn't expire until 2024, (paid for by CR England) and am on track to obtain my CDL permit this upcoming Thursday. I don't remember signing any contract, but they paid over $100 for that DOT physical.

I then started reading online that a federally legal substance called "Delta-8" would result in a positive drug screening for THC since they share almost indentical molecular structures. Sadly for me, I was ingesting this stuff almost daily for a year until June this year, when I started getting serious about my life. Out of curiosity, I had my hair and urine tested at a lab privately, and of course, they were both positive for marijuana. (Yes I know marijuana stays for 30 days in your system, but delta 8 is MUCH more stable and apparently hasn't left me yet)

Now I have two options.
1) Leave to Utah next week and fail my drug test, making me nearly unable to drive semi for quite some time and likely forever tarnishing my employment eligibility

2) Be honest about my situation with my recruiter and hold off on attending school until I can pass both drugs tests.

Of course I can't pick option 1, that's ridiculous, but my concern is if option 2 is just as bad at this point. I've been given a student ID number, but have not shown up to school yet or signed a contract, but they've paid for my medical certificate. If I pull out now, would this put me in a bad situation as far as employment in the trucking industry?

 

Thanks for the reply, I know it'd be pretty idiotic, I'm just worried about what consequences I'd face moving forward after having bailed on a company after them paying for my certificate.

 

Thank you, I'll take this advice, just really worried if I'd be un-hireable after wasting their time like this.