Don’t be so hard on yourself!!!!

Now that I have completed my CDL school at a local college (working on passing the exam now), I had to go through some emotional growth. Let me explain.
In my school, we had a certain number of hours and time. For example, when we learned the backing maneuvers, we had one truck, one instructor and seven students. We each had to take a turn which can be stressful within itself because one student can take much longer than another student. So there was always a lot of waiting out in the HEAT. Yes, I was one of the students who took a lot longer than the rest of the class.

So here I am, awaiting my next CDL exam since I failed the first one. However, I learned from my experience AND had some personal growth. I am a middle aged woman, and “things” usually don’t take this long for me to “get it”. What I learned the most about being in the bottom of the class was that everyone learns at a different pace. I had to be kind to myself regardless. For me, I believe I had to mainly deal with shame and maybe that’s because I was judging myself very harshly. Once I learned not to judge myself and accept the now and here, I started feeling better about myself.

 

What advice would you give the people that have to wait? Would you prefer them to watch or should they not watch? Would you prefer they act uninterested?

 

How was your experience going through this at a college? I applied at Prime, Inc., but the recruiters were so rude and dismissive on the phone that it turned me off of mega carriers altogether for training.

 

Some large carriers are pretty good. Don't dismiss them all because one person at one carrier was rude.
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Good luck to ya, whatever life throws at you!

 

So it took you some time to learn how to back up. And? Seriously, and???
Did you learn? Yes or no?
You aren't good at backing up. Me neither. But I bet your safe.
I know I'm not great at backing up. I use GOAL alot. But I don't hit anything. Bosses like drivers who don't hit things.

Remember you are not perfect. Remembering that is a good thing.
It'll make you double check yourself.
You'll catch your errors before they become incidents. You'll be a top driver.

Welcome to the ride.
Now go easy on yourself.

 

Tonight I'm having to backup to get to a load line. After 14 years and being able to backup up a lease road for miles I'm still getting out to look because I have 3" of clearance from a set of stairs and a separator (it's filled with things that go boom) about 18". I've already let safety know but this is nerve wrecking

 

Interesting thread. I want to tell, you folks that your hard on yourself. Your a professional because you are trying. And trust me one day with enough experience its gonna be easy. But you will still have a day now and them that you wiff. Dont hit nothing, and dont sweat it. Happens to everyone now and again.

 

I judge myself VERY harshly, but I am also kind to myself. There is a difference between judgement and shame. Judgement is "this is what you did wrong, fix it", shame is "I dun f'd the h to the s, hope no one finds out".

I don't think a week has gone by in the last 10 years where I haven't said "Roger, that was dumb" or "Roger, just how MANY times were you dropped on your head as a child?". Being self critical is what allows the mediocre to become average and the average to become good.