I couldnt do it

I just couldnt do the over the road thingy. I hired on to a company that promised weekends home. Well...it was ok during my training period. Missed a couple of weekends, but no big deal. Now that I have my own truck, I've been home a total of 2 full days in the last 40 days. By full days, I mean 1 whole day home. The two times I got home it was late Friday night and had to leave very early Sunday morning, like 1 or 2 am. That gave me Saturday to spend time with my wife, son and dog, do laundry, go shopping and pack again for the week or weeks.

I knew getting into this that I was going over the road, but I didnt figure that I would never get home.

The final straw was a nice preplan on Thursday for Friday delivery, pickup, then delivery in my hometown on Monday morning. Again, I wouldnt have gotten home til Saturday and have to leave early Monday morning, but at least I could go home for a day. Well....on the delivery they canceled my load home, gave it to someone else and gave me a horrible 250 mile run that delivers on Monday. That means the weekend off 800 miles from home. I dont think that was right.

Anyways, today....I am going home. I sent a message via qualcomm saying that I was going home. I parked and emptied the truck in their terminal, got a rental and told them they could let another driver have it if needed. Pretty sure they wont hold it for me. But, I am going home. Jobless.

For the drivers that are over the road that are out 2 and 3 weeks at a time, I dont know how you do it. I surely cant.

Thanks for reading. Sorry so long. I hope to find some work in my area for maybe a local farmer or sugar beet factory or something like that.

 

Wow...that says it all. Very well put. I appreciate that quote.

Thanks for all the great replies. I really want to drive. I love driving, I like big trucks. I think I know why it was so hard for me. Its because I went from working out of my home to living on the road. It wasnt too bad when I got home every weekend, but I really cant go for more than a week.
We've been financialy struggling for awhile now and I really feel that I let my wife down because the money was starting to come in. Although, she is driving 800 miles to pick me up. Didnt want to abandon the truck. I parked the truck in their drop lot and walked a couple of miles to a Walmart and called a cab to get to a motel.
I know there's no chance of me getting a local driving job, but I'm gonna look. Whether its driving for farmers or whatever, I'm gonna try. Probably going to have to fall back on my previous career which is in real estate and very unstable in Michigan.
Again...thanks for the great encouragement, I appreciate it. I'll keep you updated on what happens. Maybe I'll get lucky and get a local something and be home every night.