I'm failing Out Of School

I want to give it my best shot but I feel like this school has screwed me. I've been practicing in a factory parking lot since January. I just did 3 days at the main campus and these guys have ####ing landmarks, dots in the pavement to aim for, the instructor actually gave me tips instead of just sitting in his car pointing.... And they're letting me be fluid, where-as at the satellite lot, ive been made to stop before turning the wheel when making adjustments to the trailer.

I feel like they've screwed me a fair bit. But I know that it's also my fault for allowing myself to sink, instead of swimming.... But I have issues with anxiety. I'm just worried about spending 3 Grand for another 20 hours and then still failing.... That's the last of my money.

Plus now I'm wearing glasses, my right eye is 20/40 corrected, my left is 20/20. My vision is all wonky. I have to get used to these glasses and I'm worried I won't.

But, I am thinking I will continue trying. This is a challenge in life and it's about time I find some self respect. But if I fail, I'm going to need a psychologist...

 

lol well I can't continue unless I do

@ibcalm19
It's a "1on1" school so I was behind the wheel 20 of those 20 hours. Unfortunately I was following hand signals from a guy in his car and getting yelled at for attempting what I had learned online or attempting to do things from my gut. My instructor swore and threw his phone down the last time i got out of my truck and walked up to his car to ask him a question. At the main campus they're ####ing asking me if my instructor taught me anything at all... yeah, he taught me to stick up for myself and fight for my education or I'll be spending another 2800 and I'll still fail

My nice side: He is somewhat of a good guy, and he got me to where I am, but I think i would really benefit from a more verbally helpful teacher.

 

My instruction was anything but up close and personal.

 

Yes it may be haha.

So they ####ed me. Yup.
Idk. My instructor mumbles a lot. He says things like "use both of your pullups, that's how you're gonna pass" lol where-as, in the 3 days I've been at the main campus they're teaching me how to finesse the trailer into the lane without using a pull up. Idk. I do feel angry at the instruction I've received.

But, it is also my fault, for not speaking up... About my concerns. I just wish I could have compared my the satellite location instruction to the main campus instruction a long time ago, so I'd know what was happening. I was being told I was doing fine.

 

I can give that a shot