Please help; too depressed, it won't STOP

I'm glad there is improvement.

Did they do a full blood work up on you? Did they check your thyroid?

Don't be afraid to talk. Talking about your problems is good for you. If not here, there are many support forums. From what I read you sound intelligent and normal. This is something that will pass. You ain't crazy.

What are you going to school for?

 

Before I give you my opinion, let me tell you a little bit about myself. Growing up I was always angry and pissed off and felt like i wanted to chew nails. I was always over reactive and over sensitive to everything. No matter what I did, i always felt like wasting someone for some reason,most of which i no longer remember. I never got along in school or with my parents. Ive been fired from probabally 5 jobs when i was younger. About 14 years ago my mother started telling my uncle who is a doctor about my problems and together they staged an intervention with me. The family came together and all told me that i needed to admit that i have a problem and to be open with treatment options. In the end, I spent three years working with a doctor answering questions when he would change meds. The the human brain there is no definate way to take a measurement and obtain immediate results. Its not like a broken leg, where an x-ray will reveal a cracked bone. Everything is subject to speculation and the process is somewhaat trial and error. There is no way to take a measurment of how much a person angry or is feeling sad. You just have to explain to the doctor to the best of your abilitites, how you feel. Based on the info that you provide the doctor with, as well as your history, the doctor will prescribe meds. It may be several at first. The key is to trust your doc and have some faith in him / her. Most of the time the first set of meds will change in the future. They may delete some and add another or change the amount you are taking. This will happen several times, so dont get discouraged. I remember one time I took a dosage of a med that was newly prescribed to me and with in two hours my chest felt like it was broke and i couldnt stop crying for no reason. Obviously the doc said to imediately stop taking them and changed the med order. In a nutshell, it took several years and alot of appointments to get me squared away. I now only take one med and am no longer angry or sad. I can deal with lifes bumps and ruts without going off the deep end and overreacting.
Dont feel down on yourself or feel inferior. A mental issue is the same as having any other physical injury or disease, they are just harder to diagnose and cure. At one time or another, half of the people in this country will be perscribed a psych med.
If i may be of any help, please feel free to send me a message and for Gods sake, dont go off and do anything stupid that you will regret later.
Suiscide only hurts the ones around you. It will destroy you kids, spouce, parents and friends.

 

i was diagnosed with bipolar when i was in my 30's shortly after i had a run in with chicken pox. Medication was necessary to assist me in getting out of the cycle of ups and downs and to learn how to conrol the symptoms on my own. I was on medication for 10 years. and took it as was told. I did have a LOT of hospitalizations when things got out of control. not every medicine worked but finally got a combonation that was able to get things into control and I was able to work on the issues that I needed to work on. took 8 years to get it all together, however changing my location, the people around me worked wonders. I actually prefer time alone i can recharge myself that way, but at the same time i have no trouble with work stress, or with talking to people i do not know. actually I can be whoever i want to be at that time. not changing my name or anything that would be weird but more these people dont know me so i can be possitive around them and it tends to lift my mood to a more possitive. At times is is like being and actor, play the part and sooner or later the part becomes what you are. If you need help dont be afraid to get it. you can get social security for depression or biplolar. might take a while to get it but then again california is a little easier to get other help then the mid west or very north east. there is no shame in asking for help when you need it. Please ask becasue even though it does not look like a temporary problem right now, it is...there is help... as long as there is life there is hope that the depression will end. and with bipolar becareful of the anti-depressants without a mood stablizer, or you could be bouncing off the walls and not sleeping because of mania