Question about refusing to go to a load in a particular state due not feeling experienced enough

Ok, what do I belong in? Do I belong in a trash dump? Do I belong in a cemetary? Do I belong to living on a freaking park bench?

 

Also, this is my first incident of any kind. My only problem with what you said is how the heck am I gonna pay the fines off if I can't drive even a four wheeler? Give me a decent answer to that. You can't. So don't even give me that crap. You don't know me. I will fight for what I want. I fought for this job and I'm gonna do whatever I can to keep it for now. If and only if my license gets suspended, that when I am done. Cause if my license is suspended, I can't drive a truck, and I can't drive any other type of vehicle. So, I'm totally sunk. I have no other way of getting income other than helping my family out with yard work and stuff such as that. And my family is dirt poor. So, 90% of the time, I have to do it for free or for food or other things. And that ain't gonna help me out with paying the fines. If you have a better idea, please tell me.

 

You know what, you ain't worth wasting my breath on. Go hug a landmine.

 

I will tell you this. In Bertie county NC, we don't have the luxury of those things. All there is out is farming jobs and most of them are about to close down because they can't make any profit anymore. There is next to nothing in other fields of work except for places that don't hire felons. And yes I do have a felony from twelve years. I have kept my nose clean since and have not had any charges since then until now. So, if you still think that I should just go and sell pot and get myself back in jail, you are sadly mistaken. I am doing everything I possibly can to avoid that again. Even if it means not having anything. I would rather die than go back to jail.

 

It was at a tight intersection where traffic was refusing to give me room manuever. I was focused on not hitting cars or injuring someone.