Shamed. What to do now?

What is you location? Put location on your profile and you will get more responses to help in finding a new job.

Maybe consider running teams coast to coast for a few months, until you get more experience, then go solo if you want.

Here's a few, if you're in the hiring area. Apply online to save time and get a quicker answer.

Benny Whitehead Trucking
Carolina Cargo
Martin Enterprises of the Carolinas
Buel Inc.
Windy Hill

 

I agree with these guys. You are a trainee. You aren't supposed to be a great driver. Your trainer was the problem, obviously. Nobody shifts perfectly when they are new. You will learn a lot by getting out there and just driving for a month of two. Come to think of it, I graduated first in my class at my trucking school. I seem to recall climbing a hill out west in a spring ride cabover with 300 horsepower hauling a heavy load at 14 miles / hour and missing a gear and coming to a dead stop . Of couse, when you're doing 14 vs stopped it's not much difference. Only happened once. Your trainer was severely unqualified. You might consider Crete. They send rookies out with a trainer for 8 weeks. Good luck. You'll be fine.