Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

Hi Rocks...how are ya doing this fine evening??
Come here you...yes...I'm going to hug you whether ya'zz likes it or not...



Anyways...about the breakfast...it does look good...but I usually don't eat big breakfasts anymore...

Nor do I indulge in pork products...
I try to avoid pork whenever possible...
But they, society, seems to lace everything with it now...
It's in pizza, breakfast sandwiches, and always comes with breakfast...
They just assume everyone eats pork...

Anyways...I'm to physically hyper to get heart burn...I'm not to the point in my life where stuff like that starts happening to me yet...maybe it's my metabolism...
But sooner or later..me body will start breaking down just like everyone elses...oh what a sad day that will be...

That's why I try to enjoy myself now Rocks...cause I know one day I won't be able to...I know one day i won't even want to look at my own body...

That's why I take so many photos of myself...like a canvass...
Cause one day I won't want to...

One day I'll be to old and withered to care...and will wish when I was some what younger and flexible and photogenic, that I would have appreciated me own body more...

I recently had to make many visits to a senior care center...(just ask U4EA what I went through...he was there for me through it all...what a wonderful soul)



You see a lot of stuff in these places that really make ya think...
As you walk down the hall, many times the doors are open...and you see people laying up in their beds in a half zombie state...

It's sad...
I made many aquaitances while there...spoke with everyone I came in contact with...I never ignored any senior in there...and they started to love me for that...

Cause no one else cared...

I spoke with them like they were my own parents or grandparents...always said hello...always made them know I was aware of their presence...

And that's all they really wanted...was for someone to acknowledge they were still alive and had value...

Well the ghostchildd did just that...

I have a rule...no one will ever feel unloved or uncared for while in my presence...

I kind of miss that place, the people...I really do...
If I could play an instrument or something I'd go entertain them...



But just saying 'hello'...or 'how are ya doing'...just seemed enough to alter moods for the better...

And then you'd come back the next week and that person would be gone, dead...no more...

That's the kind of enviornment it was...
People on here bicker and choose to not like you for the silliest of reasons...but being in a place like that really showed me what was important...

And how 30 years from now, me putting red nail polish on my feet won't matter at all...the only thing that will matter is love, affection, acknowledgement, and respect...

So why not give it to each other now..instead of waiting till we're all bed ridden and forgotten about at a senior care center...

The end isn't always pretty...I got to see it up close...and am still emotionally trying to recover...

Most of the dead souls on here never even noticed...they're to busy hating on me or judging...

i lost some close people in my life...and no one even asked or cared...accept U4EA...and I'm sure the new Zeb person would have, had they been around...

Anyways...getting a new computer is like getting a new car...you just want to drive it for the sake of driving...and I'm kind of like being long worded here, just for the sake of being long worded, cause it's nice to be on a keyboard that actually works again...

 

I feel like I'm in heaven or something with this new computer and keybad that actually works...



Ok, this is like 'sex' to me...having a keypad that actually works...it allows me to lay down thought twice as fast as before...wow...wow...

Well...I've got some stuff to do...I've gotta get the new camera uploaded...and other programs uploaded...my new HP printer uploaded, which I purchased a few months ago...now I'll be able to actually print stuff...make a news letter to leave out and about for you all to read...

Let me get started...I'm all hyper and excited right now...

 

Not sure...I usually leave stuff in the oddest places...I have stories to tell about that later...

The funniest thing about life is it's full of irony...illusions...like a David Copperfield show...



Paths cross and things happen that are just unexplainable...expecially when your nice and open to things...

Ever see the movie 'Yes man'? starring Jim Carrey?



Where instead of saying 'no' to everything...he starts saying 'yes'...and his life radically changes...

This movie has more depth than people realize...
When you open up to people...and or situations and or opportunities...one would be suprised...

Zeb...(can't spell the full name yet)...I feel good right now...happy...

Thank you so much for 'caring'...and you too rocks....

That interaction and support really means a lot to a soul like mine that's more use to being ignored and socially crusified, than embraced and loved...

Why are people so selfish with love and affection?



What are people afraid of??

Love, and or loving others is not a gender specific emotion...

Like owning a pet dog or cat...we love it, fall for it, regardless of it's gender...
But can't seem to do the same with our own kind...

And I know why...but don't feel like going off on a long essay...
Just want to keep it simple for tonight, after yesterdays emotional rollercoaster ride...



Yes...tonight I feel happy and light...
And it's a direct result of the energy yourself and others have shared with me this evening...

I feel liike uploading a photo to show how I feel...but this new computor is blank...all my files and photos are on old computer...so i better start taking some new photos so i can share on me website...not here...cause I'm banned from doing so on here...

If I had a million dollars right now I would take me, you, U4EA, Bumpy (see, I didn't forget you) and Rocks on a long vacation...and you could even bring your girlfriends if ya have them...or wives...

I would treat you all like gold...

But instead of staying at a nice clean crisp Hotel...I would prefer we stay in a place like this...



That way we would never stop needing each other...

Anyways...gotta run...

 

Morning all...

I really bucked the trend by going large instead of small with technology...
As a illustrater, I just have no use for a small handsized computer...i need a large regular normal sized keyboard...and I need a large screen to see the artistic displays I create...

On a totally different subject...

I think a radio Pastor may have stolen some intellectual property from me...



Cause I heard on the radio this morning...a commercial for his sermon...and it sounds just like a blog post I posted on a different forum titled: Sunday, the day of a million 'gods'...

In other words 'god' has become self to most...

Anyways...this Pastor was talking the same type stuff...and I'm like 'where did you get that idea from?'

If indeed they got it from me, they'd never admit it...there hi and mighty in their microphone the echoes far across the auditorium...and to admit they got their idea from a lowly soul like mine would be to admit their not 'supreme'...

Most of these Pastors have convinced themselves that 'god called them'...but that god could never call a soul like mine or yours...it's important they, the pastors, make that distinction in their mind...(frail man)...

Anyways...this paster hit upon my theme, and sounded fake and phoney saying it...cause most all Pastors barrow from other peoples themes anyways...they don't have the self generating passion I have...I need no template or book to read from...

But I suppose they, Pastors, do serve an important purpose...so let me stop...

But if I find out that dude stole my theme....

That's what bugs me about people...



when I say things...I'm ignored by the masses...let some nerdy Yale graduate Pastor express the same theme I already did months earlier...and they get praise...and oood and awd by the audience...

People are even selective about who they make heroes in their life...gotta be of the right pedigree...gotta have the correct papers, or everything you say or express is invalid...wow...

 

Hello everyone....Oh what shall I write about before I step out for a quick minute?

How about deception....I hit upon that theme once...
I don't feel like tracking the post down...but I wrote how to me, deception, is the worst kind of evil there is...

Deception is the trade mark of the devil...for it says in the bible that Lucifer or the devil is the father of all lies...

Deception is worse than smoking, chewing, drinking, cursing, gambling ect ect...

Cause un-like smoking or drinking or just being wild....deception has a motive...

None of the other sins do...

And motives are what makes man evil...

Be aware of that in your life, and you'll be safer...emotionally and physically...

Be aware of the emotional limitations with mankind, before you get involved with mankind, and you'll be the wiser for it...

back soon...