Magnum ltd - fargo, nd

I think all of us have horror stories. I myself simply don't have time to post half of mine. I lose my cool a lot, thankfully its usually only noticeable inside the truck. I stop myself sometimes and ask if something is worth being pissed about though. Being pissed and the stress it causes seems to make life harder so I try to just let #### go, it doesnt always happen, but I try..
Today for example, I could have been raging earlier. I got the wrong address and company on my load offer. Brokers screw up. Wasted over an hour. Then had to do a 90 blind side into a dock between a trailer and another truck just to get turned around so I could leave the wrong place. I looked at it like a challenge. Only 1 or 6 minor pull ups and one peak out the passenger window, I nailed it. Where I actually picked up at wasn't much easier. Old facility on old streets built before 53 foot trailers were ever conceived and it was a partial blind side itself. Just another challenge. No big deal.

I'm headed from GA to Miles City, MT early am. By yesterday I had over 12k miles for August before my layover miles are even added, so no complaints. Lucky my July and August miles were good because September miles may suffer. My mom is having hip replacment surgery. Routine surgery, but she is 75 so I want to be in town and to help out in the days following. Will probably be putting in for around 7 days total off in September.

 

The good, the bad, the ugly. A day in my life. Getting to old to worry about most of it. Thinking about the bs all of us product relocation specialist go thru. It's not the big problems, it all the little ones that seam to run together. Like the song Jesus take the wheel. Some days I wish he could. Be safe, count to ten, and take a xanax.

 

Have you priced individual insurance? Makes what we pay for Magnum's look cheap.

It isn't suicidal, it realiism. @Pigbacon said it, and @tucker uses it as his signature line...it referrs to my negativity is a poison...etc. I just feel as if I speak my mind, rant a bit and bring up something going down the tubes for me, it just stands out and is criticized. You mentioned a lot of my previous critiques, even going back to my early months here and remember them, but you can't seem to remember last month when I posted positive comments about Magnum's loaners being so much better than any of the Poly loaners, and how getting back in my regular truck after a loaner made me realize how much better these are than the 587's, and how I turned big miles within my 1st 8 days after getting the loaner. I don't think I got over 5000 "thanks" for being negative all the time. Check the thread since November of last year, see how many positives I have posted.

thanks, but if you were in your former profession, we would have never spoken, and if we did, I would offer suggestions as to where you could stuff your referral. No offense, I don't see doctors (other than a DOT physical), I don't medicate, and have no use for any of these so called doctors who think that the perscription pad is the best thing since sliced bread.

What I meant by that is simple. Just because I don't enjoy life most days, it doesn't mean that I intend on taking matters into my own hands and ending it. I truely believe in destiny. Each of us have a finite number of days to live...when it's your turn...you die...nothing can be done to change it. So attempting to take my own life would only cause me more pain that I would have to live with...that is unless it was my time, and then it would end whether I was sitting in the drivers seat, mowing the yard or sleeping

 

Negativity is a poison. If you dwell on it you will be unhappy. It will make you sick. I want you to be happy but I don't know that it's possible here.

I dont know how to help you Ive tried, wish I could. I get good miles, I get good pay. Stuff bothers me and sometimes I vent. I just don't let it totally bring me down because I couldn't change it.

 

I do remember you saying those things now. I'm sorry I misspoke.

I think you should tune your Sirius radio to channel 128 and listen to it for a while and absorb some goodness for a long time!

 

thanks, but if you were in your former profession, we would have never spoken, and if we did, I would offer suggestions as to where you could stuff your referral. No offense, I don't see doctors (other than a DOT physical), I don't medicate, and have no use for any of these so called doctors who think that the perscription pad is the best thing since sliced bread.

What I meant by that is simple. Just because I don't enjoy life most days, it doesn't mean that I intend on taking matters into my own hands and ending it. I truely believe in destiny. Each of us have a finite number of days to live...when it's your turn...you die...nothing can be done to change it. So attempting to take my own life would only cause me more pain that I would have to live with...that is unless it was my time, and then it would end whether I was sitting in the drivers seat, mowing the yard or sleeping[/QUOTE]

And the stuffing the referral sure as hell wouldn't be anything that I'd never heard before. Just curious why you can't or don't enjoy life most days? SSB, granted we have to contend with a LOT of BS, but I TRY to enjoy my job and the guys and gals that we work with and are out here with. And by God I am not an overly optimistic or positive person. Find something to laugh about, there is some seriously funny crap out here everyday.
Anyway, here this should help you:

 

Your right snackbar... There was a week or so you did seem happier... I hope you find more of those....
I know I was as unhappy with you in my last career.... It didn't start that way... But slowly over time I started hating it. It affected every part of my life.
I decieded to change... Cause life ain't worth been unhappy all the time. It has made a world of difference that a lot of people close to me can see it. One person said I was going through a mid life crisis.... I feel it was more of a midlife awakening....
I have been critical of some of your posts... Not because I don't like you... But because I want to see you 'get it'... But I realize I don't have that power... Only you do... And if you have given up, well.... If you always do what you did, you get what ya got....

I hope your next job fills all of your expectations and your cup runneth over....

And I hope it happens soon...

 

There are also a lot of us that call each other every day and talk and discuss what helps us, what hurts us, and how to do better. We get tips and pointers from each other. We discuss lanes. We joke and laugh. We pick each other up out of our lows and frustrations. It really helps.

People have offered their number to you for help and support, you just didn't utilize it. I'm not faulting you or calling you out. I'm just saying there's no reason to go at it alone!

 

I swore I would never subscribe to those cheating ####### service again (referring to sorry-### xm). They cost me $100's years ago when they removed money from my bank account months after I cancelled my subscription and stopped the automatic payment deduction, and then it cost me more to resolve the issue with them over whether they still had permission for the automated withdrawal that was stopped by me months before, but was processed anyway.

As for absorbing goodness...I take it you're referring to some sort of religious path. Sorry, been there, done that. In fact, I can trace back to when most of my problems and troubles began. Most of which started when I was a very spriritual, faithfully religious man. But gradually, I lost all faith in what man calls God, because no matter how much I believed that in the end, prayers would be answered and things would work out right...they never did. In fact, the more I believed, the worse the problems got until I came to the realization that God is just figment of early mans imagination, a way for the elders of the tribe to help maintain order by convincing the people that there is this unseen overseeing father figure that is always watching, and that if the do something against the elders wishes, they will be punished. That eventually morphed into what people now call the various denominations of religion. And people are so convinced that this guiding force is almighty, that they are willing to kill any and all that don't believe as they do. Many denominations have gone thru that level of belief in mans history.

@Xeres63, you wonder why I have gotten so down on life. Imagine someone standing over you. They knock you to the ground. Just as you get up, they knock you down again...this continues time after time until one day you realize, if you don't get up, you can't get knocked down again. That is where I am, I have been knocked down so many times...not just the big things, but every attempt I make at doing anything goes completely wrong...that's why. And it's not just me. My father had the same #### luck I do, and now my son has it as well.

 

On a side note...I love how some places charge us a lumper fee to unload freight that they ordered. I guess it's just something I'll never understand.

Also, if you are stopping at the Pilot in New Braunfels, need to get there b4 6pm. They are repaving the lot in some spots and there are deep holes dug where they are fixing to lay asphalt. Plus they are using the reserved spots to store the equipment.