Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

You know how you buy something, and the cashier forgets to remove the anti-theft tag from it, then you walk out between the theft detector...



Well I did just that...and when I did...the dog gone alarm flasher horn thing went off...



And some grungy guy, custimor, standing there, looked at me and said

'uh oh'...

And I looked back at him and said 'uh oh what?...what, do you want to pat me down, and put your hand on my butt!!'...

Now obviously I didn't steal anything, the cashier simply forgot to de-alarm the dvd I purchased...but this grungy dusty man tried to make it worse by saying 'uh oh'...

And I just snapped back before I could stop myself and said 'Uh oh what, what, do you wanna pat me down and put your hands on my butt?!'

Then I just walked out...cause I knew I was innocent...and kinda wish someone would of touched my butt so I could have sued...

I already don't like being around some of these dust covered stare at you all the time, grungy looking whatevers...and I just did not need that fella trying to make things worse for me by condescending to me like that or the situation...

(My more reasonable calm side say's he did nothing wrong, and was maybe just trying to be 'funny'...but my current, agitated mood side, says 'mind your own business buddy'...

Anyways, just thought I'd share that as I head off into the abyss of back roads...

 

Yes, this may be the future of trucking...for many or some...



(By the way, I've arrived at destination, just trying to stretch the mind before I go to bed)..

Anyhow...Sprinter Van running is becoming more and more popular, expecially to those who may be burned out to traditional big rig driving...

For one, as DOT tightens down, and as CDL's become under more attack...Sprinter Vans don't fall under none of that stuff, due to their weight, and the fact that they don't use air brakes...

So as more and more drivers get chased out of their semi-trucks...this is a good alternative, that is if you still like to drive.

Many larger companies like 'LandStar' and 'Panther' and others, will hire you on, if you have your own sprinter van...but only as owner operators...

Not a bad idea, you still get paid the same or more, fuel is cheaper, maintance is cheaper, no road restrictions...and you still get the miles...and can actually take the scenic routes...



And believe it or not, these Sprinter Vans can be and are outfitted with small sleepers...or beds...

If I stay in trucking...this is a option I'm seriously considering...but I'd have to finance a new Van...or one with little miles...cause in this business...you can't be late due to breakdown...

Someone on here inquired about this to me a while ago...but I never responded until now...(you sent me a private message)

Well if your reading this...this is what I was talking about...
You can still be a owner operator, just on a smaller scale and with a lot less hassle...

Anyways...I hope this helps...

 

Ok, I had to pull over and upload this photo I took of a log truck that rolled over today around noon time...It took a corner to fast...

Ok, I've told these guys time and time again, to slow down...(when I had a cb)...but all they did was shun me, some chased me, and told me to mind my own business...

These are some very rough rugged men, but physics is physics...and being rough an rugged will not prevent your trailer from tipping over...do you know how much insurance that will cost your company?

And points on your license under these new rules...

So please slow down, log trucks, or I'll get a cb radio and start bugging you again...
(Yes, the driver was ok...)(ego a bit bruised though)(and probablly needs a hug)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7x_vWNRS5c

 

I changed my avator to miss piggy for a while, cause that's how I feel...

miss piggy was tough, but never got no respect...(nor did Rodney Dangerfield)...

miss piggy was tough, yet elegant...and most were out for her loins...would rather make pork chops out of her...but the pig endoured, kept her head up..


(This is my home, a pig, living in the mud, trying to keep their head up)


Well, I feel like a pork chop chump right now...

I figure this is how most see me anyhow...a pig, trying to be elegant, living inside of a slaughter house...

I was the victim of theft last night...and not in the best mood...it's one thing after another...man has made life to complicated...

And I also realized last night, that I will never measure up, can never measure up...to God...never...

And so I guess that's why I'm glad Jesus can...I had to kind of rediscover that for myself last night...

I think there's a lot of things I need to rediscover, if I ever hope to get meaning out of life anymore...

(This post is a reflection of my current mood...I'll write about what happened to get my mood here, in a lator post)...

Right now I just want to sleep, after I pull out of this dock....later...

 

I still feel like a pig, but at least I'm laughing again...

My quorky persona doesn't allow me to stay down very long...

Like 'Murdoc' on the A-Team...

Maybe going 'insane' is a way to protect yourself from the harsh realities around you...
(No, I'm not going insane, I'm just saying...)

I have a brilliant mind actually, but people just don't want to recognize it for all the wrong reasons, their wrong reasons, not mine...

But I am feeling a bit emotionally drained from last's nights incident...I mean I had to call the cops.



and all to file a report...I felt so victimized...and upset...

And then some driver tried condescending to me..(I mean do I look that stupid and gullable to some? Do I look like I'm some freshman out of college?)

Well I'm not...and I don't need some guy talking to me like I'm some dumb kid...
And then further insulting me by offering me money, and by doing so suggesting to others I was incapable of taking care of myself or making a decent living...

I mean do I just look that dumb in real life?
Do i look that dm nieve?

Then he wanted to shake my hand...and held it like I was Queen Elizabeth...



I'm not Queen Elizabeth...and he shouldn't of shook my hand like that!

He made me seem like I was dumb and incompetant...I did not need his help...I was already resolving the issue...but he still spoke to me like I was 'dumb' and needed his guidance...

I almost, well did, snap at him...'Just go away! I have it under control'..

But dm it...they wouldn't...until finally I calmed down...(such a wierdo)...

Anyways, it's not him i should be mad at...

Why am I blabbing on like this? it's time for bed before I head off on a 300 mile trip or so...

 

After just walking inside of a rest area bathroom, and seeing what was inside of one of the stalls, I can't say that I blame some drivers for prefering to leak next to their trucks...

I mean my gosh, it will take me a week to get that vision out of my head...yuk..

 

It's wet and rainy...

I've got up a Halloween avatar now...I doubt I'll be in a position, location or mood to participate anywhere this year...what a shame...I so hate throwing away holidays anymore...

One benifit of working in a office setting with hundreds of people is usually they throw a Halloween party...and there's always someone or lot's of people you've been wanting to talk to all year...

And halloween parties give you that excuse...



And usually in companies like that, you have young, old, women, men...and everything inbetween...that's how you develop crushes on people...is by working around them daily...

(it's also a climate that often leads to affairs)

I mean if your wife or husband or boyfriend or girlfriend is around other opposite sex way more than you, due to work, sometimes attatchments develop...

But in trucking, your just alone...no halloween party, no nothing...

And half the people I see I wouldn't want to have a Halloween party with anyhow...
Not unless I were drunk...

Unless your a driver with kids or grandkids, Halloween is probablly yet another Holiday or event that passes ya by uneventfully...how sad...
Life just starts taking on a grey tone, a warehouse here, a warehouse there...
But that can happen to people in any profession if your not careful...

And another thing, you don't know how to plan your scheduale as a driver...you can't exactly get a date on Halloween, and then end up stuck 300 miles away...

That factor alone kinda dampens your enthusiasm to want to do things or plan...cause you never know where your going to be...

There's a few large ladies with low self esteems where I work...I think they like me, heck I could ask them out...

It seems all the women who are available weigh 300lbs....and usually between 25-45...

But once they get over the age of 45...they start shedding weight again...like high school or college shed weight...

You hardly ever see overweight women over the age of 45...the balloon years are from 25-40....after that, I think midlife crisis makes them want to slim down again...

A tally of women said they reach their sexual peak at 45-50....

And I think most males peak at 18-24...(average)...

Anyways...I think their about loading...Oh traffic will be a mess on 285 and south of here...maybe I can beat the mad rush...lator...

 

My nightmare finally came to preminition today...

Scenerio...

Tired, wore out, body strained, need to replinish vital minerals and nurtients in your body, go to flying J, to get quick salad or turkey leg or other to go buffet food that use to be at register...

Instead, walk in to find all that stuff removed...and replaced with corn dogs...

And all the other organic food, replaced by shrink wrapped deli sandwiches with no nutritional value what's so ever...

Looked across the store and saw a Subway resturant...and my heart further sank...

It felt like the movie 'Invasion of the body snatchers'...
And indeed, the invasion has been complete...

That whole franchise , impersonal, big corporation way of doing things has tooken over and won...

And i find that so so sad...and mentally and physically unhealthy...how they could just strip drivers of so much food variety, and replace it all with either Corn dogs or Subway...that's what's kids eat, not grown men and women...

It's important to replemish your bodies minerals and vitamins out here, expecially if your a hard runner, and mis out on sleep often...and don't excercise like you should...

I was talking to a co-worker today, and he told me his nephew had a stroke a few months ago, while driving a truck, while sitting at a rest area, due to strainious driving...and this guys fairly young...but that's what this lifestyle will do to you if you let it...

I stopped now, and am typing this, cause my body can't go no more...and my health comes before any load...

Sometimes they just don't know when to stop, and they never thank...

And their at home sleeping, eating right, while your out here eating greasy corndogs, cause your parked in the fuel isle and need something quick and easy....

I drove all last night...with a nap here and there, been up all day...driving and working...and was trying to get somewhere before they closed...then I just said 'screw it'...I'm not going to wear out my body...for what?

There's no finish line or trophy ever waiting for you...just an ambulance that comes to haul you away if you've pushed yourself to far and hard...

Nah, sleep, proper rest, diet, and taking care of yourself comes first...expecially with chicken feed pay or rates...

Then you gotta satisfy job time, family time, business time, personal time, romance time (that's extra, if your lucky)...all within the confines of your truck throughout the day...people call when you need to be sleeping and so on...next thing you know you've been up for 23 hours...not good...

Look, regardless of what you all think of me, or the things you whisper about me behind my back, by telling others to avoid me and all...I know what I'm talking about...

And I hold none of that against anyone, believe me I ve learned by now how fragile most people are...even those who pretend to be tough and all on the outside...

But to me, it's kind of a phony type of toughness...a shallow type of toughness...toughness is being able to deal with people of various backgrounds and angles and viewpoints, and or looks...

Whispering behind peoples back and judging or condemning, to me isn't tough...it's just a predictable human behavior with most...

That being said, I will continue to share what I know, what I go through, and what I see out here, in hopes that someone can learn something from it one day...

One thing I don't like is cowards, and people who hide...that's the one thing I cannot stand...

Anyways...time for rest...later...

 

It accumilates...you can't cheat sleep...you can't cheat it...your body needs a certain amount a day or week, and like keeps memory...

So after I get loaded here, I will sleep...
Bad thing is, I use my cell phone as my alarm clock, and people call...

A driver for 'John Christner Trucking' just gave me his card...I asked about his company...he showed me his $1500.00 check...over the qualcom...

alot of east west driving...I-10 type of driving...also some renegade driving...just not sure if I'm cut out for that anymore...

Remember...I work for a owner...so whatever I made, I'de have to split or share it...If I were to go with a company like that, Id be better off just going back as a company driver...

Instead of getting a truck, I may just get a used trailer...and then me and the guy I work for...could run our own loads...and have much more say in how things are run...



This is how you make money guys...this is how you make money...if you have your own refer trailer...you can write your own ticket...

(are you listening rookies)...

Anyhow...I'm exhausted...need some rest...my thoughts are getting goofy...later...

 

Why is it that whenever you talk to a woman, over an extended amount of time (weeks or months)....why do they always wait until you make a move (give them your number, ask for theirs, ask them out on a date ect ect)
Why do they always wait until you make a move, just to then tell you they have a boyfriend or husband or jelious ex ect ect..

Why do women do that?
Why do women wait for you to develop sentiment towards them, only then to tell you about their significant other?

Why do they emotionally try to trap you like that?
I don't think that's fair or right...

I'm not one who's into cheating...not at all...I don't like the idea of intruding on another persons love jurisdiction at all...not one single bit...

If a woman has a boyfriend or husband, to me, it is their duty to tell you, the guy, right up front...don't wait months or years or weeks, but rather they should tell the guy up front that their in a relationship....even if that relationship isn't going well...be honest...

That's how affairs develop...a lady will allow a guy to fall for her, and once the guy falls for her, he thinks she's his, even though she's in a relationship already...

Women are as guilty of affairs as men...

Accept when it comes to me...the buck stops with me, cause I don't believe in cheating...and maybe that's why I'm still single...cause I don't believe in intruding on another guys turf...

But I guess in this day and age you have to, in order to find someone...

You have to be willing to cheat, and rip a woman from her man or relationship, in order to find one...

Well not me...can't do it, won't do it...

I don't mind if they spring the 'I have kids' stuff on you...as long as their single...

But when they spring the 'My boyfriend' stuff on you...that annoys me...

There are a lot of men who are not fulfilling their women...cause a single guy like me hears about it a lot...
A lot of guys arent listening to the women their with...and the ladies feel their being tooken for granted...again, a scenerio ripe for an affair to occur...

They even got whole adult porn sites dedicated to 'cheating wives'...and these women don't even make any attempt to cover their faces...

I mean what is going on??

This is a issue truckers need to pay attention to, seeing as your gone for weeks or months at a time...

Might want to install survellance cameras...

If I were married, I would not want to find out or worry about my wife being 'humped' by 'harry' or 'ed' or 'kevin'...or the plumber...

I would not want the plumber visiting my house while I was gone...not with a lonely wife there or girlfriend...

And remember, according to reports, women reach their sexual peek from 45-50...so when your game has long ended, theirs is just beggining...